I've Got To Get Out

By ColorMeToxic

I only feel when I cry.

Mostly numb and then crumbling inside.

I'm falling to pieces before my own eyes.

I'm trapped in my head, a hell of sorts.

I'VE GOT TO GET OUT.
It's killing me slowly
I'VE GOT TO GET OUT,
I'm losing me surely.
TORTURE.

Those things that you did,

Were wrong to me.

I didn't ask for it...

and you didn't either.

You will pay,

when your time comes.

It's coming soon.

Scared of death?

They say to forget it...

get if off my mind.

It plays like a movie reel...

CAN'T SLEEP.
not at night...

Your favorite time.

To the other person,

Who strongly influenced my life...

You are not good for ME,

Or MY kids.

I love THEM too much,

to do what YOU did.

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Published on Thursday, August 2, 2018. Filed under: "Abuse" and "Poetry"

Author's Note:

This is about growing up in a very toxic home, with bad situations all around you. Growing up learning from other peoples mistakes...and realizing how those mistakes made you feel...It helps me heal to write about it.

Comments on "I've Got To Get Out"

On Thursday, September 15, 2011, Woes of a Succubus (2) wrote:

wow this is powerful...my home was quite unstable and broken as well, I hope you do achieve healing someday :)
A former member wrote: Yes, i understand and thats all too real
A former member wrote: Ive got to get out..its killing me slowly i can relate on a strong level..problem is i cant get far enough