A Letter Regarding Old Daddy Issues
By lupus tenebrae
Dad,
This isn't about you,
humbling yourself, mingling
with the common folk just long
enough to give a shit,
nor is this about me,
preaching closure like it's
a tired sermon that someone
finally put out to pasture
...this is about us:
how you became
a weathered old man
with his brittle
cross to bear,
how, even though
you left me with little
more than a song and a frayed
heartstring, plucked
one too many times,
I still entertained some
strange notion that you cared
and that I was just one lashing
away from winning you back;
as if I were holding out hope,
until hope itself
turned grody with
a feint veil of decay.
Sincerely,
your patient son
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Copyright 2014 lupus tenebrae
Author's Note:
The second and final letter addressed to my dad. I've said all I needed to, at this point.Awards
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On Friday, May 31, 2019, TheMidnightMorrigan
(7) wrote:
Some parents inspire us to fill their shoes, others teach us not to walk in their path. This hit home for me.
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A former member wrote:
Wow! Blew me away...such an honest and deeply emotional ink, I resonate with the sadness and rejection in this. I too have 'daddy issues' all beit different from your own. Great work my friend.
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On Monday, July 9, 2018, lupus tenebrae
(860) wrote:
Thank you for the feedback, this is actually the second letter, more about coming to terms with it than venting. It really helped, he's got no power here, anymore, and I feel writing or talking about it takes that hold away.
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A former member wrote:
I agree with that fully, getting it out of your head and writing it down is such a massive release. Good for u my friend
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A former member wrote:
Some hate &/or anger (or just plain ol' contemplating past events) is completely natural & justified, as well as is the guilt that stems from such mental activity. Most all of the challenges the world faces are caused by what fathers do to their sons, on countless levels. Even knowing this, we still beat ourselves up from time to time. It usually fades with age, though.