[never/always/forever/still]

By Malice In Wonderland

Dearest Angel

Please know that when you ripped my heart out
I said I needed to be free
It was all lies
Surtured shut with lipstick and white lines of [in]sainity.

Please know
That when I said I didn't cry
And you asked me to speak up, because my voice is so soft over the phone
That tears ran like a something feral I could not contain

Sweet, sweet, you...

"Your so niave..."
These words you so often threw at me
When you knew not
...anything.

Please understand that you didn't know me at all
You knew a shadow searching
For anything

Please realize that the fix I needed I never found in you
And never wanted to
That the wounds were and are .still. real
I {never/always} still .really. ment to spit in your face

[or stab you in the back...]

Please understand
I did what I had to do
To hurt you
And that I told you a lie when I said this was only for a simple excersize in fulfillment
[That I'm still empty...]

And please
Never find out
That I [never] told you

I [never/always/forever/still] Love[d] you.

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Copyright 2011 Rain In The Willows
Published on Monday, January 2, 2006.     Filed under: "Ironic" and "Poetry"
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  • BetaWolfinVA On Friday, February 14, 2014, BetaWolfinVA (795)By person wrote:

    wow, thoughts/emotions so much like a mirror, (i am reminded of the glyph from David Brins book Uplift War "see in me the image of the very you" ... i wonder what the emoji for that would look like) Scholar

  • Slingnasty On Sunday, May 20, 2012, Slingnasty (138)By person wrote:

    my humble opinion awesome!!

  • Dreams Of Nepenthe On Sunday, September 30, 2007, Dreams Of Nepenthe (3)By person wrote:

    You have a beautiful way of expressing your emotions. I've enjoyed reading your poetry and find them all very worth the time. I'll be looking for more.

  • Angst Queen On Sunday, March 26, 2006, Angst Queen (370)By person wrote:

    Beautifully written. The feelings within it are flooring. The words you used, the way you wrote, it strikes the reader deep.

  • Dysphoria On Friday, March 24, 2006, Dysphoria (88)By person wrote:

    Beautiful.. I can't describe the feeling this gives me. Amazing write.. -Justina

  • A former member wrote: The last line has described emotions I went through with a girl I loved and as hard as I tried to get rid of the feelings I had for her they stayed right by my side..... heart felt write

  • Lord Kalgalath On Monday, January 30, 2006, Lord Kalgalath (182)By person wrote:

    christ.. if i could find fitting words to tel you how this made me feel, for what it stirred inside me, they would go here, but all I can say is that this hit deep.

  • Ravenblade On Friday, January 27, 2006, Ravenblade (313)By person wrote:

    Kya, this was beautifully written, its been so long since I've read much of anything on here, especially by you or other favorited writers, but this was awesome. >Raven

  • JiNx On Tuesday, January 3, 2006, JiNx (98)By person wrote:

    I love this write.. I really do hun.. Nicely written and well done. I love ya -huggles- Always your JiNx(ie)

  • A former member wrote: Oh my...yes...I always used to wonder, with my ex, whether I was getting the truth or a sugar-coated lie...this is wonderful. Absotively wonderful. *Evangel*

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