-these forever hellos..

: This morning :

I woke upon a bed of needles,
tipped and tripped with liquor.
Soft and sweet illusioned,
comfort from myself.
I kissed them and bled my own as they embraced me,
cutting : 'do not feel'
Cause tomorrow will always be perfect,
but we'll rest our hearts today.


I want you to kiss her along my eyelids
so that the patterns sleep gracefully
like your tongue on her skin-
your hand on my face.
You love us both, yes- you want us both.


The 'other' savage lover woke her sad eyes today,
dialed your number and moaned some metaphors. .
Your voice on the other end, dancing inside
the strangled wires..
Dancing & tapping
.

Professing to myself
[I was gold & she was copper]


"Don't think I don't care, cause I love you more than
anything. ."

Is love leaving?- Because tonight is the night.
Our end- restfully swaying in my peace.
My heart to pieces,
but my love never fractured...
never torn.


.: : and then there is her : :.

her soft mouth interrupted by terrible tongues,
and her bent-kiss wings were touched from claws..
this butterfly was beautifully angelic,
atmospheres deteriorate.
Lifting.Swooning
Darling, she is you..

bending

to

the

sky

[I loved her death]

It's been too long- my eyes sting from imagining you
next to me. .
So I sleep, let the stars come up again
& I sleep.

Maybe saying goodbye just isn't something I can do,
So I'll let myself believe in neverending
kisses and forever hellos..


Blue eyes-
They aren't pretty anymore
Always, sometimes-
Red eyes..

and you're all poets out there,
so you feel my language as though
it was your own body..
dreaming, weaving. . making love.

tell me you couldn't stand to be with.out me,
tell me you've missed me.
but twist it to the motion of the clock. .

the clock [beats]
you
her
me
us
them
all of you


the beautiful ones I've looked for,
and for once-mumbling goodbye has made me realize
I cannot leave. .
I will never leave.

the [clock] beats
orange
alcohol
stereo
broken
glass
whores
.

I've not been high,
so please forgive me.
Im in love with you,
so please forgive me..


and minutes later I am the perfect bliss..
your dark eyes.soft lips
I think I could fall here,
I would fall if you weren't holding me to the bed..


[hands on me, cause baby-that's wanting]


Your words are vulgar,
spewing from your face.
Perhaps you just feel not this pain..

but we're in love with you,
cause we love to love those loving loves
. .
l o v e
does
not
lift
me
anymore
. .

gold&copper

take the breath straight from my chest
your.place
. . . .

no longer yours,
as these forever hellos are undressed
by vulgar hands