The Lotus Empty (repost)

By Malice In Wonderland


I feel like I'm .slipping.
The loosening of my grasp frightens me
I've only just tasted life
Just starting to see the hope, the beauty in existance....
Have I awakened to late?
To miss the full essence?

The earth tre/mble.s beneath my feet
I fear falling
Into the same old abyss
My [least]favorite ||vortex||

I WILL not give in to old callings
Yet they beg so sweetly...like music to my ears
I wish I could swallow .tat.tered. pride
Beg for help, and yet, as loud as I scream, sometimes, I doubt you hear me.
Do you?

I feel words evading me
Slightly dodging my touch
Avoiding any trace of pen and paper....
Perhaps, I will write no more, the love of words seems to shine down upon me no longer, yet I love it most each moment.

I feel I will [combust].
These words, like unshed tears
Linger, yet refuse to make themselves coherent.

I fear sometimes, I'm being rip\ped away from beauty I only just knew...
Though the memory would imprint images everlasting within me,
I sit paranoid of the first bite of mortailty fading...
I feel so cold.

I would accept this, perhaps try to change it...

...Had I the heart... 
 

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Copyright 2013 Rain In The Willows
Published on Wednesday, February 20, 2013.     Filed under: "Personal" and "Poetry"

Author's Note:

written a long time ago, but...fitting...
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  • BetaWolfinVA On Saturday, February 23, 2013, BetaWolfinVA (795)By person wrote:

    Beautiful, how old were you when you wrote this? Scholar

  • Malice In Wonderland On Saturday, February 23, 2013, Malice In Wonderland (987)By person wrote:

    seventeen, I think. Scholar

  • dwells On Wednesday, February 20, 2013, dwells (4288)By person wrote:

    Can't rush it, maybe try something different, but this if this is an older piece I;m sure you've found a way to move beyond by now, thanks!

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