C

By SilentStalker

Sometimes you just let the breakdown happen.

You just let it overcome you, completely.and.thoroughly.

And leave you with [one] solemn :thought:

One ~infinitely~ important question...






"What if I don't stop?"




What if the worst parts of me took over,

And the control she felt she had over me,

Turns out to be.a.lie?

Everything I've :instinctively: wanted...

Becomes everything she has to endure[again]?




And she's left there, once again.

Broken and shamed.

And crying.

And only has me and herself, to hate.






"What if I become her attacker, reincarnate?"




God...

...Damn.




I'm so afraid..

...of hurting her.



So...

...Fucking




Afraid.





Of hurting :You:

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Copyright 2012 Darun Ferguson
Published on Monday, November 12, 2012.     Filed under: "Abuse" and "Poetry"

Author's Note:

Fuck...
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  • Ravenblade On Friday, February 1, 2013, Ravenblade (313)By person wrote:

    Darun, I can't understand how I stay away from this site as long as I do sometimes. It's poetry like this that make me glad to be back. You have an extraordinary way with words and thoughts...simply amazing

  • BlackVelvet Rose On Thursday, November 15, 2012, BlackVelvet Rose (175)By person wrote:

    To the ones that understand its not actually a fear but realization.....its when you truly understand that you know everything is in control... Scholar

  • Devilish On Thursday, November 15, 2012, Devilish (2662)By person wrote:

    And I say DAMN!!!!!!!! How is it that you fucking roll out with brilliance... Scholar

  • Dreaming in Stanzas On Monday, November 12, 2012, Dreaming in Stanzas (303)By person wrote:

    You're more scared of yourself than most people are of you. I wish I could give you a hug and a cheat sheet with all the right answers.

  • Dei On Monday, November 12, 2012, Dei (665)By person wrote:

    I'm glad you have found a voice

  • dwells On Monday, November 12, 2012, dwells (4288)By person wrote:

    Admission of fears is key to self-recognition (and control). Cheers, and the best to you both!

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