apology to a wife betrayed

By BetaWolfinVA

sorry that i couldn't tell you how i felt in person
i do not deserve you
i do not know how i feel
i only know that i am constantly lonely
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i cannot see us reaching thirty years
i can barely see us continuing for thirty days
you deserve someone that can love you with a whole heart
perhaps someone living in reston
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every time i bought something for my self
i would think about the bills, get angry about the
monthly eight hundred fifty for your sisters house
and do it any way
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i would spend nights talking to people i would never see
i was lonely and had found friends
i was not expecting what happened
i did not expect to hurt you again
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i did not recognize the danger signs
i barely know my self
maybe therapy will tell me the truth
you need to be happy, you need to be free

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Copyright All Hallows Even 2012 HHMCameron
Published on Wednesday, October 31, 2012.     Filed under: "Depressed" and "Poetry"

Author's Note:

Well, my wife found one of my blog posts, talkign about a failed online relationship... i don't know whats going to happen... why the heck would *she* beg *me* not to leave?
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  • A former member wrote: this sort of writing has a tendency to lash out souls, it either makes them think about how they've been wronged, or how they've wronged others. there is a lot of quality in a poem which can unleash such a human reaction like that

  • Corinthian On Saturday, November 17, 2012, Corinthian (309)By person wrote:

    I have been reading alot of your works,today you are new and I have been away for awhile ... From what I have read you seem to be very confused about things , and the word betrayal for your wife ... I don't even feel that is a deserving word .. And I think she could in no way possible be able to trust you again . Is unfair for what you did to her . Many blessings to her .. And hope you can find some cure for your loneliness

  • BetaWolfinVA On Saturday, November 17, 2012, BetaWolfinVA (795)By person wrote:

    not sure what you mean? i definitely betrayed her trust i am baffled why she wants to stay with me Scholar

  • Corinthian On Saturday, November 17, 2012, Corinthian (309)By person wrote:

    I have not a clue why anyone would *beg* an unfaithful man ...it is very foolish of her as this behavior most likely will repeat ..... Good evening .

  • BetaWolfinVA On Monday, November 26, 2012, BetaWolfinVA (795)By person wrote:

    her staying does neither of us any good. does she really see texting and sexting as less of a betrayal than being within driving distance of the other? Scholar

  • Corinthian On Monday, November 26, 2012, Corinthian (309)By person wrote:

    You have a serious problem do you understand that ? Is almost as if you are proud of what you do .. If you were ....( were ) a good man . You would leave her , you dont deserve her .

  • BetaWolfinVA On Tuesday, November 27, 2012, BetaWolfinVA (795)By person wrote:

    you are the only one talking about what really matters, *her*, thank you for that. Scholar

  • BetaWolfinVA On Monday, November 26, 2012, BetaWolfinVA (795)By person wrote:

    i am not proud the shame is shattering me i cannot leave unless she lets me go Scholar

  • archangelmichael On Monday, November 5, 2012, archangelmichael (10)By person wrote:

    Thank you for sharing. Some day I hope to hear something like this from the woman I lost but still love, yet I know it will never happen. I know that when these things happen both people are hurt beyond comprehension.

  • BetaWolfinVA On Saturday, November 17, 2012, BetaWolfinVA (795)By person wrote:

    its just so much total chaos... starting to feel like home Scholar

  • dwells On Thursday, November 1, 2012, dwells (4288)By person wrote:

    Intensely personal, thanks for sharing, and 30% of all relationships break up due to internet / online relationships. As Jimmie Carter used to say " to sin in the heart is still a sin" but as I say - all part of being a man too, cheers and best of luck with your lady.

  • BetaWolfinVA On Thursday, November 1, 2012, BetaWolfinVA (795)By person wrote:

    it was all over but the screaming long before i started to stray ... Fighting this realization has be crashing into therapy again. had i been happy, i would have never been distracted by Raven... nor would i have fallen in love with WolfsBane. Scholar

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