Faith: To the Mormons

By BetaWolfinVA

in my heart,
i am faithful to one woman only
(but not the one i married)
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in my mind,
one womans name rings out and drowns all
(but not the name of the one i tied myself to)
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in my soul
i am bound to naught but one
(but she lives far from me)
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i may believe in your church but not in your betrayl
how DARE you demand that i cheapen
the sacrament that means the most to me?
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between me and god there is a gulf
for i placed my pride, my despair and then my hubris
between me and the one god intended
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i can live with this one
but life is all she deserves
my soul? that belongs to another
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if you see it, this is my confession
but i cannea tell you in person
lest i shame her e'en more

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Published on Sunday, September 30, 2012. Filed under: "Spiritual" and "Poetry"

Author's Note:

This one was written after Raven moved out, but before my divorce from Porcelain Doll... looks like i was addressing the last part to Raven

Comments on "Faith: To the Mormons"

On Saturday, September 21, 2013, ApathysKiss (377) wrote:

well if you're not happy do something about it. least you can do for your wife is let her be happy with someone else who wants to be with her as you should for yourself. life is too short to be miserable.
A former member wrote: the first three stanzas hooked me hard... that is my state in life... but she really is a woman... I worship no deity; except, perhaps, sometimes the darker side of me...
On Tuesday, December 11, 2012, BetaWolfinVA (791) wrote:

the first three stanzas are a woman for me as well... the one i would have married... had i been less fixated on having children... i would have understood how she felt
On Monday, October 15, 2012, Devilish (2633) wrote:

I love your raw honesty. i shall read as many poems of yours as i can to get to know you . hello there . your last post a few days ago soaked me. lol. i love it.
On Tuesday, October 23, 2012, BetaWolfinVA (791) wrote:

which one had you...soaked?
On Sunday, September 30, 2012, Dei (663) wrote:

Seems like youre well versed in mormon slang. Like, "life is all she deserves", I get that. I like this. thanks for sharing
On Monday, October 1, 2012, BetaWolfinVA (791) wrote:

humm, i didnt even know that was established slang, I only tried to go for about a year... and no way was i going to sign up for "time and eternity" when I alreay'd given my soul to another woman...