Once When i was young
adult though still innocent
her lies drew me in
would i be free if i could?
why does she have such a hold?
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i was her lifeline
i endangered my freedom 
to keep her alive
her love my hidden sorrow
and her love my secret joy
---
i have only loved
one other e'er in my life 
with her gone i fall
back waiting for raven's call
will she be my morrigan?
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should i become free
of this trap that has become 
this empty marriage
i think that i will travel 
apologize for my wrongs
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hand him the means to
punish me for my wrongs or
start my life over
as her friend, companion or
become something more to them