Fumbling Towards Therapy

By BetaWolfinVA

On the turning of the year,
i was happily married,
if a trifle lonely,
but i had my games
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in mid april i thought that
my wife was looking to prowl
neither worried, nor jealous
i thought of raven and her husband
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i crashed for the first time
when i stepped over raven's friend zone boundaries
wrongly thinking it was guilt
i confessed to my wife
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four months of slipping
job performance
just trying to find old friends
i went back to delphi
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i crashed the second time
thinking i had found love to replace
raven of the 17 years
and the soul deep guilt
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my scattershot thoughts
skipped a few steps
and too early texted
and lost budding loves promise
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seeking therapy months too late
three week waiting list
maybe i find myself again
after i am free
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i hope i can still write
after i get therapy and free
i hope i can still love
i hope i can still be loved
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Published on Wednesday, October 31, 2012. Filed under: "Depressed" and "Poetry"

Author's Note:

well, story of my life

Comments on "Fumbling Towards Therapy"

On Sunday, December 2, 2012, BetaWolfinVA (795) wrote:

first session was last thursday... next thursday not coming soon enough
On Saturday, December 15, 2012, BetaWolfinVA (795) wrote:

therapist hour round trip away, distractingly cuddlesome... traded in for retired navy serviceman that is right across rt one from home... "you are responsible for your own actions"
On Wednesday, October 31, 2012, Dei (665) wrote:

therapy is inspiring.it shakes off the cobwebs of old emotions and opens up your soul to the universe to be filled with inspiration.
On Thursday, November 1, 2012, BetaWolfinVA (795) wrote:

i wound up in therapy the last time raven broke up my marriage... this wife made me stop going. I should gave never stopped. if they offer drugs, I'll tell them to insert... sideways
On Wednesday, October 31, 2012, dwells (4285) wrote:

People grow older and grow up - or grow apart too sometimes. Remember the good times and move on if you can, slowly - cheers (you words say more than you can imagine)
On Thursday, November 1, 2012, BetaWolfinVA (795) wrote:

the ones that approach me have me for life... and they regret quick, and run the ones I approach I tend to marry and regret.
On Wednesday, October 31, 2012, Strataic (100) wrote:

Great pen here, 'Life is a bitch and then you die' Comes to mind for me. I hope you get back on your feet for another bout, best of luck to you sir.
On Thursday, November 1, 2012, BetaWolfinVA (795) wrote:

Yeah, life is a bitch... but sometimes you can make it a loyal one other times you get bit