On the turning of the year,
i was happily married,  
if a trifle lonely,
but i had my games
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in mid april i thought that
my wife was looking to prowl
neither worried, nor jealous
i thought of raven and her husband
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i crashed for the first time
when i stepped over raven's friend zone boundaries
wrongly thinking it was guilt 
i confessed to my wife
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four months of slipping
job performance
just trying to find old friends
i went back to delphi
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i crashed the second time
thinking i had found love to replace
raven of the 17 years
and the soul deep guilt
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my scattershot thoughts
skipped a few steps
and too early texted
and lost budding loves promise
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seeking therapy months too late
three week waiting list
maybe i find myself again
after i am free
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i hope i can still write
after i get therapy and free
i hope i can still love
i hope i can still be loved
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