On the Death of Raven's Mother
By BetaWolfinVA
I do not know if I remember her fondly or not.
I only remember that when she held my life in her hands she didn't take
it.
I was a very young 23 when we first met.
I do not recall if I saw her on my first visit or not, but by then I was
already trapped by her daughters lies.
"How old do you think she is?"
"... sixteen?"
"Yeah right"
Every time I visited, I cleaned the living room, so I would have a place
to sleep
Raven was atypical, on mood stabilizers, claimed to self medicate on mj,
and would often scream at and hit her mother especially if she threatened
to have me put away. .. but for some reason I was never in fear...
Did I know that Raven's Mother was only using me because that was the last
hold she had?
Did I feel then (as i do now) that I deserved to have my life destroied?
I cannot even go to the funeral because there is no good way for me to
know about it.
Even now raven holds my life in her hands.
And all I want is for my mother, father, wife and daughter to pay our respects
to someone that was morally obligated to destroy me... and didn't.
Author's Note:
Raven's mother passed in the nursing home on Thursday, 11 September, 14, i did not find out until early this morningComments on "On the Death of Raven's Mother"
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On Monday, September 15, 2014, soul_versing
(883) wrote:
Oh Cam, such depth in your pen. .hugs him tight. Now on ward with your life, sir. I found such sadness in this, but an overall beauty shines through. Write on, love♥
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On Monday, September 15, 2014, BetaWolfinVA
(795) wrote:
Raven is mourning her mother and I am playing plausible deniability games. Such a coward. Implication is that she wants me there, or is waiting for me to ask outright. Only 6 weeks to decide.
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On Monday, September 15, 2014, BetaWolfinVA
(795) wrote:
I owe her mother my life, how can I not honor her memory. There is not yet an honorable way to learn of it, how can I go. Honor and discretion are churning me a bloody froth