Life or Honor (Friday,_19_June_2015_09:02)

By BetaWolfinVA

The Struggle for integrity The Struggle to be worth breathing air
The Struggle to live without love
The Struggle to honor my wife
The Struggle to live without love
.
how much longer can I go on without
the simple feeling
of a loved one
held tight
in my arms
as i drift to dreams
or find my own way across the veil
.
finding ones self trapped between life and honor
is not exactly conducive to survival
find yourself a play partner
and let me find mine
.
i am tired of
dancing on the razors edge
you are not the only one that matters

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Poetry Comes from a Tilted Mind
Friday, 19 June 2015 09:02
http://tiltedmind.blogspot.com/2015/06/life-or-honor-friday19june20150902.html

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Published on Friday, June 19, 2015. Filed under: "Depressed" and "Poetry"

Comments on "Life or Honor (Friday,_19_June_2015_09:02)"

A former member wrote: I am right there with you Cameron ... some times I question why I got married in the first place other than the vague answer of "I loved him..." Beautiful write!
On Friday, June 19, 2015, BetaWolfinVA (791) wrote:

Being poly married to mono... it's so hard to ask if she's reconsidered finding a play toy or another partner...
A former member wrote: I can certainly understand that .... Maybe some day she will reconsider .... its a liberating experience that's for sure.
On Saturday, June 20, 2015, BetaWolfinVA (791) wrote:

i can see her stance, however... from 2010 to 2012 i was normal then in 2012 my obsession with raven returned.. i feel well trapped
A former member wrote: That is a hard thing to swallow for sure. It's hard to share your love with more than one soul when it's not programmed in to the fiber of your being although it can be learned hopefully you find a amazing resolution to this dilemma ....
On Monday, June 22, 2015, BetaWolfinVA (791) wrote:

she is already used to spending most of her free time with others... she drives two men back and forth to work, and they talk a lot... i am not much of a talker. were i a jealous man, this would be unacceptable... as it is it feels rather unfair to me, she is out until midnight or three am talking, and she gets jealous when i simply text raven... she really got pissed when i tried to go to ravens mothers memorial service, even though i asked her to come with me... a few more steps, and she lets me have friends or "friends" as well... but it is unlikely
A former member wrote: Keep trying man .... thats all you can do