not really a wedding per se...

raven had come back into my life, 
first through a phone call, 
porcelain doll and raven were talking...

not really sure fo the particulars, but they formed an agreement of some sort that involved them sharing me in some manner, 
or seeing who i chose to stay with.

i took it at face value...
since there was no real way that it could be legalized, i figured that consumation would be all that we could have.

porcelain doll stayed down stairs, while raven and i went up stairs

raven was twenty, i was thirty, porcelain doll was thirty eight

raven's appreciation of my inadequacies (i didn't get to use my favorite tools as she did't want to take a shower first, it didnt matter to me, but it mattered to her...) had my first wife running out the door screaming, and my second wife unfulfilled as i desperately tried to make both of the ones that i thought of as my wives happy.

turns out that i was too stupid to realize that i was the prize in a war between a weak woman and a strong one... instead of building what i saw as a family i was infact letting the woman that had control of my life down while i was destroying the woman i had married

raven had made me go back to porcelain doll when i called her, telling her that i was free

shame over hurting some one i should have loved makes me cry.

when raven made me go back to porcelain doll, i phrased it as "we want you to stay"

this is when the consumation was planned...

five years later, my first marriage was over, but the "second marriage" ended in 2004 when the one that i would have chosen had i realized what was really going on gave up, and left finding someone more socially adept that gave her the beatings and other things she wanted