nothing you want matters (5 stanza haiku)

boy and girl jumping
on the bed the boy larger
knows not his own strength
 .
broken bone later
boy is taught to be careful
and always reserved
 .
especially when
it hurts and soul death is near
hold in, no one cares
 .
moving around from
base to base does not let you
keep a lot of friends
 .
first law: do no harm
second law: ignore wishes
third law: do as told
 .
come out of dream world
nothing you want matters, boy
why should i care now
.
dad does not deserve
my words, why should i confide?
i feel despite him
.
An undelivered letter to my Father