My Fatal Flaw (Tuesday, 23 December 2014 10:14:00 PM)

Raven/Morrigan
Did i call you true all those
years ago.. my death?
ending contact on twitter
just because of the music?

punishing me for
choosing my wife instead of
my married true love
that i have not seen in ten
fucking years... why the cruelty

she knows i love you
did you think that i could stay
far away from you
in the same damn room as you
without her holding me back

or was this a way
to punish your husband and
i for not sharing
room mates, is that all we were
when you ruled over my house

forced me to stay with
that wife after i left to
finally at last
have you in my arms as wife
at long last, then you broke me

the six months you lived
with us were your way to break
me to your cruel will
why torture a submissive
when he didnt understand

but i guess you just
wanted a dominant man
who would hurt you when
you wanted, you could have had
him too, wasn't that the deal?

yes i tried to do
what we normally did in
mornings you and i
were alone, snuggled cuddled
joy turned sorrow was enough

"what do we tell him"
i guess you forgot it was
regular routine
before i went to work and
you slept till noon for your job

"no means no" says he
"from her" says i, no defense
you didn't recall
the request you made laying
in my bed those months before

i should have seen it
coming when some days later
you, smiling, announced
to my legal wife and i
that you were leaving us, me

from the moment you
joyfully announced he asked
my house of cards came
crashing down, my junior wife
was not, and i died inside

that is the day that
i hated her for the first
time, and three more years
besides, as she stayed to gloat
and finally realized she lost

it was four years too late for
my heart, my hope, and my love
i married again
two years after that you tore
happiness from me

your husband was sad
you, lonely, it was six years
two happy years lost
i tried to hide from the truth
then saw date spam on her phone

misplaced elation
and misappropriated
permission had me
respond to you, damning me
months later, i fall, confess

guilt ridden i think
it was my wife i felt i'd
betrayed, regular
no, it was shame for asking
to see your naked pictures

you let your play partners see,
but not me, or any one
that you had feelings
for or had feelings for you -
those were his play rules

many betrayals
later, we are offered my
first cousins daughter
in my eyes she sees "leave me
or we both foster the child"

The little one is
lucky to have such a
mother as my wife
but our love is gone, lost to
one lost and so far away

how much longer can
i keep the choice between life
and honor my dear
how much longer can i keep
this damn ten year pen i earned