startled by the call I recieved
unexpectedly
figures the rain would turn to hail
on this warm day
a dark transparent cloud becomes
a permenant halo
staining my mind with dillemas
as the sun rises
it's a lose lose situation

The calling turns my mind to bend
like dreaming, then the screaming
A day carried by smiles crumble
The thoughts in my head blank
Onward I fumble
bright like the day before
Clouded emotions turns to hate
How to carry on?
To cope much more

not knowing what to do,I'm blindly
staggering
this path I walk,due to the weight
overwhelmed
by the sensation of frustration
bottled up
inside my heart's boiling cauldron
bubbling
over with anxiety

Only she knew this side of me
touching every deep emotion
in her hands were my devotion
It falls now from my hand the blade
I know now it's never to late
blood dripping from my writs you see
her and I could never be

so I stealthly moisten her lips
with my own
life's liquid stain colored mauve
hoping that
she'll wake in my apathy's process
wishing for
relief to swoop upon me quickly
before my dead
stare is etched in her memory

I bow before her now seeing nothing but a spark
love was needed, all not cast aside
the dreaming grasps me and holds me fast
a kiss of words in my heart
and the light appears
I walk now the hallway
in the after I seek refuge

my child smiles from below
and her mother seems content

a life given
a soul granted

blood on earth, semen planted