bludgeoned by tears
and her captivity away from me
how and why could
a mother do this to her child
doesn't she care
children need BOTH their parents
in one way or another

apologizing profusely
does no good to correct the mistakes i had made
in fact my heart bleeds
captured by the lonliness without her faceveryday
staring at me
tearing away pain
confiding in
striding joy just

to be near her

i'm crying
inside and out
like a baby
hungry for a meal
i'm starving
this dripping heart
i need to live
i'm struggling to keep
my composure
as i battle each day
with a plastic
smile so no one knows
i'm dying just
a little more with intense
tears eroding
my cheeks and wrinkling
my aging skin
everything in my life falls
back to the loss
of her knowing she's being
forcefed lies
and forcefed truths which
will only destroy
her innoncence

and it's all my fault