dreaming of a better life

no time like the present to change what's wrong
with this smeared picture of myself

sliding down lifes eternal
pipedream
so clogged
by persistant nightmares
surfacing on blinking
lids of eyes
during daytimes drama episodes
rerunning
constantly through
bits and pieces of reality

stapled
to my minds walls
forming a collage
of tragedy and
broken smiles

intertwined in cyclones
of insanity
dying off into dustdevils

babbling
in
tounges

speaking of a false
God
found in the mirrors
reflection
peering past
my souls window
streaked
by insecure
perceptions
revealed in the
oasis
changing inside

clouded visions of storming pain
hailing upwards
staining
transparent open wounds

eating it's way out from
under this abyss
gorging on deaths umbilical
cord
wrapped around my past lives
neck
like a barbedwire noose

ending any chance of accelerating
beyond the river of
hades

stretching into the silver lined
cotton clouds
pulling it's curtain
at dawn

managing to suck myself
miles from Heavens
infinite happiness
splashing into pools of
intense scorching
satisfaction

recycling myself into this unbroken
circle of life
becoming eternally stuck in this rut
i walked around in

finally collapsing in a euphoric
content heartattack
jumpstarting my unused wings

waking to telepathiconversations
made from a collect call
from umbel craters
on this crescent
moonbeam

delivering my halo's
destination
upon rippled waves
revealing
tremendously beautiful
inscriptions
shown to me as i listen

to the universalanguage of harmonious
music sung by an unbelievably
large choir of exquisite
angels hitting several
phenomenal unheard
notes and tones

created on the perfectly timed flapping
of feathers on winged relatives
welcoming me back home with
hugs and kisses

rejuvenating the depleted life sin stole
from me with the intent of capturing
my long painful endured soul

or is it the other way around???