Tear Stained Smiles

I was born
down in the dark azure waters
of Poseidon.
Where I soaked up the essence
of rythymn.
Basic instinct and survival
of feed
and stay alive,
as I roamed the deepest depths
of this core.

But then, one day...        I saw the sun!
In it's reflective brilliance
I was immediately
entrapped.
Lost in bright waters
and kaleidoscopic reveries,
I flirted with the surface...
...

And then, is when she caught me.

'I was that fish;
the one she caught upon her hook.
But instead of flailing around
and struggling...
Instead of feeling   pain.
I was calm.  Joyful
even
to have found her.
For now shall I learn what it means
to emerge from the water.
To conquer something new.
                 ...to breathe.
And it was with that first breath
my fin turned to feet,
and that crisp air filled me.
Now.  I am home..."

And so did I dance...
feeling the subtelty of grass
and the structured foundation
beneath me..
I felt grounded.
.               sure..

but then my eyes began to dry.
My feet, tired and broken
as I lost
             and lost...

Blood stained eyes
and tear filled smiles
if but to pass the day.
But the facade
created a rage
that threatens to release
the animal.

That shrieks   forever!
Radiant and primitive
ultimate release...
And manifests destruction.
That longs...

And left me,
                            today.

,...When you died.

)after we play in a world
that analyzes
and critisizes
lost in the humanity
of fashion and acceptance
We intensify the passion...
and we so fully mourn the loss.
We, the creatures of the mind...
succumb ourselves to it.(

And I did not want to believe it
to ache from it...
but the choice is left beyond me.
I must strongly, let it go.

Raised high, my glass
to you
companera
I am stronger today,
because I had you yesterday...

I released you then...
and came back home.
Where an angel
met me with pink roses
presented with a full heart...
and bright smile...
"It's your birthday!!!
Momma's Day... :)  "













..That cloudy day
suddenly ,

didn't seem so dreary.





My greatest flaw,
is also
my strongest endurance...


I always
             hope..