Places, Everybody!!!

By RubyXero

...That was the day, I became
the Queen of Fools....


-.. So often, in my confidence
would I enter the stage
bright, crimson red
flowing ribbons
as I would leap and twirl
Exaggerating my movements
as my story was told
not through words,
but in the fluidic movement
of dance.


But when I lost you...

it was such an abrupt halt
as if gravity hadn't laid upon me
one set of toes
climbing the stars
as I held myself grounded
from the other..
Arched back and arms splayed as
feathered wings, to give me lift.-

And in this fixed position,
I began to weep.
Slowly, these fluttering wings
I released,
and placed my light toes upon the stage..
and left.


Never had I realized before
actual eyes had watched from
the backs of cushioned seats.
That I actually had,
an audience.

and I felt almost
mocked
as they requested my return.

As they threw on their neon robes
and dresses
and boasted their relations.
Taking their turns
to wear your crown
proudly, upon their floating heads.

Deep inside this beat,
and from the bottom of this pit,
I was sickened.
Why boast in competative
attachment?

Each petal is just as unique
and essential
to blossom a rose


And so, I tried to find my way
back under the lights
once more.
But once there...
losing my purpose
I was unmoving.
My breath became deathly silent
as though I were mute.

even as the bright
over-enthused faces flitted around me
I searched the outer void
and found my audience..
and so I remembered

it was not for them, I performed!
not to please
or gain any recognition.
It was for myself!
It was for my pulsing heart.
for the heavy beat of the drum
and how it made my aura burst
as I felt alive!
And now it shall be for you
with you...

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Copyright 2012 RubyXero
Published on Wednesday, May 23, 2012.     Filed under: "Personal" and "Poetry"

Author's Note:

when my good friend Jose died, everyone wanted to cry together, to boast his friendship to his family... ect. And I played no part... I didn't want to brag of our friendship to people I didn't know... I just wanted my good friend back. My dancing buddy.
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  • A former member wrote: This a very beautiful and sad poem at the same time. I’m glad that writhing is your outlet. sharing your pain and joys with other always helps to inspire others to do the same. Keep dancing.

  • dwells On Monday, May 28, 2012, dwells (4288)By person wrote:

    It is said that dance is man's physical expression of thanks, through the glorification in his own wonderful body and spirit, personified in movement. Our memories are our own to cherish, and the sharing en masse seems to be some kind of a new age phenomenon perhaps. Courtesy of reality TV perhaps. Well done Ruby, as always, thanks.

  • FadedBlues On Wednesday, May 23, 2012, FadedBlues (2172)By person wrote:

    ...very bold & emotional...keep dancing.

  • Dominic On Wednesday, May 23, 2012, Dominic (55)By person wrote:

    A beautiful poem that asks alot of questions. Why do we perform - on any level? People need to ask themselves what is more real, the performance of emotion and mourning or the real tragedy. Loss itself. Nothing will change it. Brilliant.

  • Fading Poetic On Wednesday, May 23, 2012, Fading Poetic (18)By person wrote:

    I've been here before, when a good friend died a few years back. Suddenly everyone knew him, and threw his name around. It really is an odd thing people do, taking situations and exploiting them for their own self-promotion. That aside, this work is absolutely magnificent! I loved reading it, beginning to end, and will likely read it again in the very near future.

  • Magdalena On Wednesday, May 23, 2012, Magdalena (616)By person wrote:

    Such a beautiful write Ruby and the authors note is truly heart-felt and just as beautiful..... I love the last stanza.

  • haunted On Wednesday, May 23, 2012, haunted (851)By person wrote:

    when i read this ruby it sounded like you had stage fright badly, with nerves unlike steel. but with your authors note it became clear that the butterflies were just you being non- modest and reserved about your relationship with jose maybe. and your right, why boast about being great friends in such an emotional state. it might make things worse for you emotionally. im sorry about your friend. nobody will replace him, but i know you will find somebody that will give you what your missing. i wish i could dance! but thats how i read this. its fantastic, awesome write ruby!

  • RubyXero On Wednesday, May 23, 2012, RubyXero (484)By person wrote:

    it was a big loss for me, and this is how I respond... I write! (go figure) thanks for the kind words it was the only way I could portray how it made me feel..

  • Melancholic VIncent On Monday, June 4, 2012, Melancholic VIncent (431)By person wrote:

    When I first read, I thought it was about love loss, only then i read what you said, and realise it was about the death of a friend. But isn't friendship a kind of love too? Death is a ghastly business. I have only read it once, but it seems that you punish yourself about being happy once, as if you felt like you didn't deserve it, so when this tragic accident happened, you felt something crushing on you and thought: what a fool i was to be happy. I don't know, i may be wrong.

  • RubyXero On Thursday, June 7, 2012, RubyXero (484)By person wrote:

    wow you hit that one right on the nail. my poetry makes me more translucent then I usually like... and such is why I only share it with a select few

  • Melancholic VIncent On Wednesday, June 20, 2012, Melancholic VIncent (431)By person wrote:

    Poetry is a way of expressing oneself, but it takes a poet to understand a poet. Foolish people can't understand it. Well, i guess you're free to share things here. Everyone here got his burden, so we all understand other people's burdens as well. Please, see my other work.


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