Dad.
By sIo
high point police report said the 26th
because thats when he found him
but i know it was on my birthday.
surprises, don't always unwrap themselves
the way you packaged them.
like your plans to visit me on christmas
but i wouldn't have been there if you did
i didn't call on the 23rd. my 21st
no ring on christmas. i couldn't.
but it crossed my mind
something urged me not to.
perhaps the endless ringing
at the other end
had i dialed.
today is your cremation date.
we didn't have the money for
a funeral.
do you know how to write an obituary?
i don't. but i wrote something.
patrick and i are the only ones
to claim you.
i ripped off my acrylic nails last night
with my teeth so i could type it up
in time for the service tonight.
i went to church for the first time
in two years.
who's going to be you now?
because when things like this happen.
you always answered the phone.
i tried to call last night.
in hopes of maybe hearing your voice
one last time
the ringing never stopped.
and you didn't answer the phone
and you'll never know Daddy,
that you were my special one.
Comments on "Dad."
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A former member wrote:
I love you S...
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On Wednesday, August 3, 2011, Devilish
(2657) wrote:
I need a minute... I'm sorry... I don't have a comment worthy... I'm randomly goin thru your work and reading... This took me and I apologize for your loss...
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On Friday, February 5, 2010, lupus tenebrae
(872) wrote:
My eyes are actually welling up, so much emotion, I'm sorry for your loss. I definitely know where your coming from.
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On Friday, January 29, 2010, carlosjackal
(3016) wrote:
This is so brilliantly written yet I'm sure you wish you never had to write this.
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On Sunday, January 24, 2010, Rebel tiGer King
(258) wrote:
*tips hat* he's in a better place -symph-
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A former member wrote:
This is beautifully heartbreaking. I'm so sorry for you loss. I hope you can start to heal soon.
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On Monday, January 4, 2010, Adam
(245) wrote:
To see another's pain so closely related to my joining of this site makes me relive it again. I can't know what your feeling, as no one could know what I felt those few years ago. My only words directly for you is you keep strong and keep around people that care, on DP or in person. It's a tragic time and I wish you well during the next few weeks!
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A former member wrote:
*hugs*............ *is soo sooo sad* stay strong sweetness. stay strong. ♥
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On Monday, January 4, 2010, theXkevorkian
(65) wrote:
I would like to express my sympathies to you and yours . Your piece stirred up emotions within myself firts because I have never had a father secondly because I am a father . Well writin I hope sharing this has healed you some ...
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A former member wrote:
I'm so sorry you have to go through this. It's something I feel deeply and truly and I won't give you any sorry cliches about how it'll all get better someday and not hurt as much, because reading this made my own father's death come back at me 100 fold and I'm crying as I type this. The only thing that helps is that it doesn't hurt all the time at this point; just at moments like this. Just keep that in mind, I guess. This is a good tribute. As was your eulogy. Many good thoughts your way during this time and please keep yourself safe and around those who can hold you up when you need it.
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A former member wrote:
This tore away my emotions... left me feeling naked in the cold... I am sorry for your loss...
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A former member wrote:
:( Miserably heartbreaking.
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A former member wrote:
What do you say when there's nothing to make it better?