matchstick muse... [one thousand pieces]

By Six-Out

I was asked once. just once
to piece together a puzzle made of rubble- made of me
only the edges were jagged/ and nothing fit.
and the picture faded- it's pointless
it's always. so. fucking.
...pointless

and honestly- I don't think I could care less.

-
these cold-hardwood floors. so spastic- yet never alive
and this ashtray. collecting the dust of moment past- a moment longed for
and these hands. these -god-damn- hands. are so heavy
trying to grasp the past. while trying to push it away
everything was once ok/ everything was once [copacetic]
and now another empty glass tells me
that tomorrow is so close- while yesterday is so.fucking-far.. away

and there's no one here to push the hair out of my eyes
so I stare into a slightly distorted mirror- it's hard to recognize myself. sometimes
these eyes. slightly darker than before- so catatonic.
un-yeilding. are these thoughts.

like a broken trophy. won for something so meaningless/ so asinine
a mere- problematic sub.note in this futile struggle for remembrance
a schism of self. I fell apart.

.
staring at this enigmatic mirage of who. I used to be. who I am no longer-maybe
a post-apocalyptic persona. piecing together an impossible puzzle
one thousand pieces- and not one to fit the mold of the next

what ever happened to apathy...






because this.
this intolerance. this consistency of failure
this realization that nothing really matters. at all
yes. this.

this is [fucking] killing me.

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Copyright 2005 Six-Out
Published on Wednesday, February 16, 2005.     Filed under: "Ironic" and "Poetry"
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  • A former member wrote: THIS FUCKING KILLED ME!!

  • Bluegirl On Wednesday, September 13, 2006, Bluegirl (177)By person wrote:

    I've felt this before. I love it. Excellent work.

  • PoeticMindBlow On Tuesday, April 26, 2005, PoeticMindBlow (22)By person wrote:

    truly amazing.

  • A former member wrote: this was really nice..

  • Lotophagi On Sunday, April 3, 2005, Lotophagi (333)By person wrote:

    you just mould words to your hand.... it's incredible, the punctuation in this rocks man.... just punches it all in. Thank you.

  • AniDayz On Friday, March 4, 2005, AniDayz (820)By person wrote:

    shit...this is incredible...im completely thrown aback...this just twists in my head,you've etched out such a truth.this is amazing..

  • CharlottesWeb On Wednesday, February 16, 2005, CharlottesWeb (511)By person wrote:

    I live here in long moments called hours...never more then a week...and am amazed when I find my way out. Your endurance is...inspiring to an end.

  • Dei On Wednesday, February 16, 2005, Dei (665)By person wrote:

    damn. thank you for this one six. a fav i must say. You are a God amoung Mice.

  • A former member wrote: Heh I can relate. I sometimes lose focus of why I even try to put the pieces together and just give up. Especially when the border pieces all seem to be missing. I can dig. ~Ryan

  • BleedSilver On Wednesday, February 16, 2005, BleedSilver (298)By person wrote:

    You just blow my mind everytime I read your work...

  • A former member wrote: This is another stunning work from you...you are an amazing talent

  • A former member wrote: ".... and now another empty glass tells me that tomorrow is so close- while yesterday is so.fucking-far.. away" Goddamn, Jon.

  • A former member wrote: This seemed so personal as if it was my own. It made me moist. Brilliant write, babes.

  • sIo On Wednesday, February 16, 2005, sIo (926)By person wrote:

    an amazing piece as they always are.

  • Lynaes On Wednesday, February 16, 2005, Lynaes (859)By person wrote:

    Damn.. There's far too many lines I could quote. The emotion in this was just, painful to read.. But in response to the last few lines, some things do matter. you matter to your friends for example. Seriously awesome work Jon.


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