May I Remind You

Nothing quite seems the way it used to

Nothing falls to pieces like I knew it would 

 

Sometime in the essence of who I was

I returned the favors of cruelty I never knew I possessed

 

If each time I've closed my eyes

Each time I've parted lips

And pardoned fouls

Each time ive ruined memories

And gone away 

 

If each time I'd only stopped. 

 

Maybe I'd be different today. 

I'd write like I once did. 

 

Maybe I might have that feeling 

That knowledge and self confidence 

That I am worth something still

 

One day I will be something

 

...

 

But Im not different. 

I'm not worth the grace I've been given. 

And I never stopped when I should have.

 

I'll keep going 

 

I know this

 

But I won't live out the rest of my days

 

Without remembering that I am not the woman I should be.

 

Without hating myself for so much

 

And I have myself for that. 

 

I have myself. 

 

One day I'll be who I want to be.

 

As soon as I forget who I am.