I Blame You!!!!

Every day I have spent, crawling home
laying in this position,
attempting to solve life, I blame you.
I blame you for the last 5 years!
That last kiss we shared when I watched my world
crumble around me
yet stay the same,...
I was so close to feeding you to the wolves,
not for anything but your lack of ambition
but truth is, you were my yang
the light to my darkness.
The closest thing to my perfect match.
Gone...
And so I only have you to blame,
for every fake smile I attempt,
for every door left unanswered
for everytime I think of you when I get too close.
For the countless broken hearts
not mine of course
...(can't wait til Karma gets me back for that one)...
Truth is, I blame you because I can't get over you.
I crave you I desire you.
I want to feel your strong hands wrapped around me
once again. 
I want you to prove your worthiness and success
as you are a god in my eyes
I want to see it in more than your body and mind,
I want to see it in your conquoring of this plane.
I only have myself to blame,
as I cannot unleash you from
that corner of my core
all I ask is
will you be benevolent and somehow
forget me so I may forget you?
or will your selfish side match mine?
will you reach and call for me back?
will you take my body as you have taken my mind?
will you fight and bleed for me, as I do for you,
my king
will it be well worth the wait?
maybe I forgot to say,
I blame you in all this,
Mr. Bones--