The blood in my veins
Flows like sand
Making my skin crawl
I want to tare at my flesh
Set the part of me that longs for you free

But my hearts not breaking
I'm holding it together
Fighting so hard
Knocking the air out of my lungs

Breathless
Still beating


I will not cry for you
No more than a passer by
Who held me for a moment


Scratched your nails down the blackboard of my dreams
Made the rocks I built my life on turn to dust
But I won't drown for you
I must swim harder
To find that island in the distance

I won't fall at your feet
Or scream your name in agony
I will simply mourn your loss 
like the setting of the sun
with silent defiance at days end