Beautiful Cutting

By GothicBlack

I've wiped away the blood
And covered up the scares
So many times
I can not count
I couldn't tell you why
It is just that I crave
The sweet taste of blood in my mouth
And I’m addicted to the pain
That comes with cutting
And I’ve fallen in love
With the scars that are unavoidable
Maybe it's just grown on me
Maybe I don’t notice
All the things I did before
But suddenly
It doesn’t seem that bad
The blood stains normally wash away
Off of my hands and clothing
And it is only myself, that I’m hurting
It truly isn’t all that horrible
I try to convince myself
In fact I like all the screaming
The fire in my veins
I do enjoy self mutilation
I have for years
But eventually
Just like every other addiction
There comes a time to stop
And time passes slowly
Without the taste of blood
Without the sensations
Of that steel blade
Running across my skin
But I know now, it is for the better
That I am more in control
Then I ever have been before
Maybe it actually is a good thing
That I’ve stopped my cutting for good
But oh how I miss it
And ever once in a while
If I allow myself to think
I’ll sit and crave for just one more cut
This is the inescapable haunting of so called
"Beautiful Cutting"

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Published on Thursday, September 18, 2003. Filed under: "Reflective" and "Poetry"

Comments on "Beautiful Cutting"

On Friday, March 11, 2011, Lylani (112) wrote:

Thank you for writing this, such brutal beautiful honesty is a rare thing.
A former member wrote: my heart goes out to you! i know that cutting is wrong but there will always be a part of me that craves it. amazing write.
On Saturday, August 5, 2006, the dried flower (67) wrote:

i totaly agree with your poem. i too love to cut, but i have stopped,but given the chance i might give into temptation of a deadly sin again(self mutilation). the days seem much longer now. don't they?.....good write.
On Tuesday, May 2, 2006, mywristshurt (405) wrote:

wow... this was a beautiful poem.. indeed it reminds me of some of my works, but you also have your own style and tasted.. i love you work
On Saturday, February 25, 2006, weyvern (80) wrote:

oh man how I feel this! Even though its better not to cut you miss the pretty scars and the fresh agony this is beautifully written
On Thursday, July 14, 2005, thornyrose (23) wrote:

well done and beautifully expresed such feeling and emotions..can almost feel the steel blade myself.
On Friday, June 3, 2005, DarkWolf (415) wrote:

That was beautifully done. I really liked this one. Thank you for sharing. -Michael
A former member wrote: It can be very addicting...This poem has such beautiful emotions...
On Tuesday, June 29, 2004, Daegonna (27) wrote:

Wow! I Loved The The Emotions Were So... Perfect! I Loved It! Nice Write! ~Daegonna~
A former member wrote: Wow.. Just wish I could stop with that 'cutting thing'.. But it goes about those words: they are fantastic :). I've got an poem about it too: called 'wounds'. Interested?
On Thursday, April 8, 2004, murder_in_clubland (384) wrote:

mmm...wow...great -is speechless-~slave
A former member wrote: I love your work. It's so real and honest. I haven't been around long, but go check out what little i do have there.
On Saturday, January 24, 2004, yslehc (334) wrote:

wow i cant believe ive never read this lol .. it's awsome.. i know exactly how that feels, as i'm sure a million people do.. but you wrote it so nicely... thanks
On Saturday, January 17, 2004, DeathSentance (17) wrote:

cutting is like an addiction...you don't want to stop...it's like you're in a trance
A former member wrote: Great poem. I feel just like this. Except i haven't really stopped cutting. I try to but the need to cut becomes to much to bear.
A former member wrote: i know what you mean. i have tried to stop cutting for the longest time... but i can't. i haven't cut in a long time... but everyonce in a while there is that release that needs to be felt. so indeed i know how you feel. + DeathFaree +
On Saturday, September 20, 2003, Bluegirl (177) wrote:

I know EXACTLY the feeling you portrayed here. It's been a few months since I've cut, but that doesn't mean I don't crave it. I love your poems.. Excellent work.
On Friday, September 19, 2003, Nightmare (24) wrote:

I also remember this part of my life, that I certianly spend time reminiscing of that time...ahh those were the days.. really great write. - Lee ^_^
On Thursday, September 18, 2003, _Andrew_ (245) wrote:

nice write, i remember this part of my life and im jus glad that i found the strength to move on, the scary part is will i go back if the person i so rely on abandons me... *~*aNDReW*~*
On Thursday, September 18, 2003, Forever Cold (33) wrote:

oh how well i can relate to this, it is unbareable the craveings that comes with it, no one can truely understand unless you have been thur it..very well done..
On Friday, September 19, 2003, Silent_Raven (19) wrote:

oh, you don't know how beautiful i think this is...this is EXACTLY how i feel...exactly...thank you for sharing this, it's beautiful. *RAVEN.*