a childhood filled
with lies and deceit
fed me my vitamins,
while lying to me.

told me he hit me because
he loved me!??
never cared to notice where he was
in your sleep.

you despised every cry
and hated my eyes

(?did they remind you of him?)

a child marked bastard of sin,
so as i grew up,
i found a way, of ... never ...
...ever ... letting you in.

grew my hair in my eyes,
showed my breasts and my thighs
you always hated it,
rubber bands on my thin tattoed wrists
gave you the fits.
you couldn't stand black
or the way that i wore it.
called me a whore, a junkie, a starlet.

i was unique.
so why did you suppress it?
was i too much like you,
that you just couldn't stand it?

nevermind now,
whats done is past,
now i live life to the brim
and everyday is my last.

i came from your womb
now i'm handing it back
i need you in my life,
like i need a fuckin heart attack.

you've done the damage
and the damage is all done
be happy that you exiled a daughter
and got to keep 2+1 sons.





i used to hate you
but alas i'm at peace
just don't knock on my door
cause i'm finally free.








it was a unique situation,
to never know who she came from
a harsh realization
to a young never patient.
lost she could hate them,
yet found she became them.







~this is the finished version of mommy dearest ( i changed the title).
~thank you for your original comment fallen it helped alot.