because everyone loves a clean slut

By totaltrip

Maybe it was genetically embedded
Maybe it was psychologically developed
Maybe it was social pressure
Maybe it was just a bad soul
I don't know which one of these is the reason
For my incessant need to find comfort in anyone that throws a good word my way
Falling so hard
Bending over backwards
Swallowing pride
Forgetting values
Just to be told
Just to hear it
For them I would do anything
For them I am nothing more than a good fuck
I am their ego boost, I am their self esteem, I am temporary, disposable
They are the love of my life, my everything, my constant thought
Everyone of them
Until they forget me
Then I feel helpless, alone, dirty
So I look until I can find another one that I can charm that I can make fall in love with me
Knowing full well, they will fall out of love as easy as they fell
But still, for reasons unknown I keep giving myself to them
Again

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© 2007 totaltrip
Published on Wednesday, December 26, 2007.     Filed under: "Poetry"
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  • Alchemist On Friday, October 7, 2011, Alchemist (688)By person wrote:

    How true, a simply beautiful write.

  • denver nitze On Thursday, January 24, 2008, denver nitze (256)By person wrote:

    wow. i think you just described me in a nut shell. me before i found true love. the one that won't throw me away. it is a chain, but chains can be broken if hit in the right spot. thank you for writing this. it reminded me who i was. and that there is hope for everyone of us. -t.a.

  • A former member wrote: I really liked this a lot, and related somewhat as well. I have always been disposable. To some people, everyone is disposable. And people like me tend to fall into the wrong arms, and I like anyone who shows interest in me because of the fact that they show interest in me when noone else does. It becomes masochistic after a while, almost embedded into your existance. Like every abuser or rapist can see into the eyes of women who have been within violence for so long it becomes so familiar they can't leave it. Screaming hey, I'm a Victim, pick me.... not purposefully of course.

  • A former member wrote: the emotion that is brought out of this in incredible... i'm sorry if you really feel that way... but it's a good write. -mars

  • Narcissa On Saturday, December 29, 2007, Narcissa (404)By person wrote:

    I loved the raw emotion of this piece.

  • Six-Out On Friday, December 28, 2007, Six-Out (1435)By person wrote:

    You're better.

  • Winter Born On Thursday, December 27, 2007, Winter Born (169)By person wrote:

    deeply felt emotion flowing freely from your mind to the "page"... I must agree with heart, A VERY powerful write. well done.

  • A former member wrote: very powerful write. ~ hdb

  • A former member wrote: Wow. I can tell this just flowed out of you. It's open and honest. Nice darlin. Good ramble dear. Now how about a blow job? :(

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