Wayward Child

By RubyXero

Held fast to the rod.
Faith unwavering.
Truth. they know. In life.
death. God!...
These 'LDS' parents of mine.

Guarded by their wings of judgement
they lived my life.
"Find out who you are, Ciera..."
echoeing in my soul.
...
But looking down upon what
I've found.



A day of joy.
A wedding!
In a temple they are joined.
Unable to see my sisters' marriage.
..Unworthy.
Yet I wait outside.
And here! Out she comes.
So happy. I'm going
through film like candy.
Glancing behind...I see them.
Snap a photo.
One of each
to. remember...
My...parents... They are just
glowing! Smiles so big. So genuine.

And I trail off.
A future scene with me...
wedding gown of night,
gliding passed the tombstones
on a cloudy,...lovely day.
Yet. ...if they came.
I cannot help but wonder.
Would they even FORCE
a smile for my satisfaction.
No. I doubt it.

And yet I disappoint again.
"A baby without marriage?"

OH THE HORROR!!!

I come back for more.
I hope. I yearn.
Please. Be proud of me.
Accept me.
See...how I've grown...


...
In a chill of defeat,
to my mother I utter.
"I know you will never.
be proud of me. I accept.
that. I only. ask.
for your support."

in vain?
...

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© 2008 RubyXero
Published on Wednesday, January 23, 2008.     Filed under: "Abuse" and "Poetry"
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  • TornPieces On Thursday, May 23, 2013, TornPieces (27)By person wrote:

    Love this , I hate the world of fake smiles.

  • A former member wrote: Heart breaking and beautiful are only a few words to describe this piece. Truly heartfelt, every word paints an image in my mind. You are a very gifted poet.

  • daiglepoems On Saturday, April 7, 2012, daiglepoems (95)By person wrote:

    Once you been poisoned by the preachers arrows you live in fear of those who have not been so afflicted. Be grateful for you still have the freedom to be yourself.

  • A former member wrote: I am saddened by this poem...very beautiful indeed...left me teary eyed...

  • SulaMoon On Tuesday, January 11, 2011, SulaMoon (67)By person wrote:

    So sad, yet so beautiful!

  • A former member wrote: loads of personality in this one. "I'm going through film like candy"... loved that bit. -END

  • SGT Bloth On Saturday, January 26, 2008, SGT Bloth (163)By person wrote:

    Very tough life...how unfortunately common is non acceptance...I felt this one..different gender..different life...same issues...maybe someday they will understand...great write..I hope they can come around ;}= Bloth

  • palenoble On Thursday, January 24, 2008, palenoble (47)By person wrote:

    I know how you feel. a great write. into fav with this!

  • MESUN On Thursday, January 24, 2008, MESUN (230)By person wrote:

    well you sure are going through a field of razor-wire aren't you? i believe you are fully capable of handling all this in the long run. be strong, plan things knowing your own actions and abilities are what's for certain. do that, and vain questions or not, you'll be fine.

  • A former member wrote: Yes, you ask in vain. God, I love this poem! You are awesome! I've been there and done that also. Come to terms with it, or it will eat you alive.

  • Taunting The Reaper On Wednesday, January 23, 2008, Taunting The Reaper (178)By person wrote:

    This really pulled at my heartstrings and my favorite line "I'm going through film like candy." was so selfless, so beautiful, that I have to believe the person who wrote it deserves more than I can ever extol.

  • Sketso On Wednesday, January 23, 2008, Sketso (436)By person wrote:

    Holy ... ouch. Raw, and deeply felt.

  • A former member wrote: impressive. definately my fav from you so far. and I loved the last line. ~ hdb.


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