Dirty
Tangled hair

Eyes
Search an empty room

With the fear and suspicion  of a street child

Who know the horrors of this world too young

Who see the ghosts

Music that does nothing to soothe

Bitter lyrics

Ring true

In screaming ears

But never drown out those thoughts

Precise

 

Definite


 

Exact 

 

Movements
 

To maintain control

Keep from shattering on the floor

Keep those sobs from biting at my throat

Knives from caressing my flesh

Count 

Every breath
 

Think
 

Every 

Empty

Thought

Read

Every word on the cereal box                      

Try

Just try
 

To ride it out
 

Remember 

There is an end

This isn't always

But my fingers are slipping

Like the string of a helium balloon 

From an infants grasp

The soft whispers of the void

Lap at my vein 

Enveloping me in velvet darkness

Like a drug coursing through me

Flooding me with disgust and loathing

No squares of paper can calm my mind
 

Not tonight 
 

My heart is screaming 

No precise folds 

No definite creases 

No exact flowers

 

No beauty is to be found in this madness
 

Not tonight