In a decade

I am sorry I called to say nothing worth saying
Because there is not point
In taking back everything I threw
because I could not be with you
I am sorry I was everything you despised in yourself..
the freedom
the carelessness
like fog and heavy rain
I am sorry you gave up the fight of this
although it should have not been a fight
If who you really loved
was me
I am sorry...so sorry
I stared at you that day
amongst everybody else
and that you looked my way
I am sorry I have to imagine you buried
and the funeral
with your parents crying
as I am smiling through...
I am sorry to say goodbye for a thousand time in a decade
Inside the silence of my room
Imagening the scenery
of you placing her the ring
and both saying ¨I do¨ .