...Silence my Chaos

By SolApathy

Burning, breaking I am undertaking
Depth of despair entrancing this air
Wicked perversions of thoughts, caught
Rambling around this melancholy misfits’ mind
Driving this chaotic interlude
Into the realm of one final feud
War within my own soul has taken its toll
Drugs litter the ground-- displaying penance of turmoil
Chaos of desires smolders in the infinity of this quagmire
--Welcome to perdition—
Purgatory of my own transposition
Fate tied to my eternal indecision
Into the nether within - -I battle my own sins
Upon the glow of this nicotine infused haze
I light up another joint and blaze
Twisting within I witness the art of my fury
Self-destructive emotional immolation
I sacrifice upon the pyre of my illness fueled fire
Mental illness you never did believe
The tightrope I walked battling this disease
Depression chokes your very soul
Leaves you to believe there is only one way to go
There is no up or down, just a deafening sound
Breaking what little will there is to survive
…Screaming…
Why don’t you just fucking…DIE

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Published on Monday, October 9, 2017. Filed under: "Poetry"

Author's Note:

...Nothing left to say as I finally conquered my darkness today

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October 10th, 2019

Comments on "...Silence my Chaos"

On Thursday, October 17, 2019, Jonas Robinson (848) wrote:

Nice ending. You have successfully blended classic prose with genuine rage. Thank you for sharing, and congrats. :)
On Thursday, October 17, 2019, SolApathy (652) wrote:

Thank you very much :)
A former member wrote: Will be back for more...but logged out and saw this...and logged back in immediately to comment...the relevance and prose was written so well I felt compelled to pass along how well this was written and how much I understood and felt your pain. Incredible expressed inked so well.
On Tuesday, October 10, 2017, worm (1149) wrote:

personally, I have never had to deal with this struggle... for which I am forever thankful... it is hard, indeed, to understand the depth of someone else's pain... or to speak intelligently about it... my wish, for you, is Peace... Be Well! ~worm~
On Tuesday, October 10, 2017, SolApathy (652) wrote:

A trip into the darkness of those that suffer every day. I've had a few good friends that have endured through the debilitating weight of their own mind fighting against them, whispering, and even sometime screaming that the only solution is to end it all.