Color Me...

By NarcissusNarcosis

I keep falling
from grace
from a place
that is dark and lacking compassion
swallowed by a metal snake...
deeper into a dimension
a mental state
that is filled with despair and misery
leaving panic as my only companion..
Color me blank and black...
take my lack of happiness as it is
and do nothing of use with it...
Hungry? Make food for thought
invent
new ways to use the shit
that flows from my mind onto these pages
I have a melting ink pen...
Color me surprised...
I have yet to die
but still can't feel alive...
am I high and fried
or left out high and dry?
Shocking how little I try
to climb out of this mine
always wondering if I should stay behind
dig deeper and see what's left to find
within my own mind
or use the easy-access ladder to climb out
Into the Light...
Color me predictable...
I always take the risk
delve deeper
knowing it could all collapse
at any moment
leaving me trapped...
My own tomb...
I would never escape
trapped perpetually in the darkness
waiting to die...
Color me pessimistic...
But to look on the bright side
of a place with no light
I would have all the time
I would ever need to mine
the darkness within my mind...
waiting to die
suffocating within the hive
of my own making
a custom-built mausoleum
a crypt for the living
but not there for the taking...
Color me trapped by choice...
I am left only with my voice
a pen and paper and some static in my head
filled by white noise...
Are my dead speaking to me?
Or are my attempts at lonely conversations
false and masked by their futility?
Color me lonely...
I guess I just feel the need
to seek this poverty greed
someone needs to put me in time-out...
Color me
in nothing but White-Out...
Like words typed by accident and deleted
I...
am no longer...
needed...

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Published on Friday, June 28, 2013. Filed under: "Poetry"

Comments on "Color Me..."

On Friday, July 31, 2020, Devilish (2633) wrote:

God i love this ..
On Saturday, March 9, 2019, Devilish (2633) wrote:

And its as beautiful as it was the first time i read it ..
A former member wrote: Valentine's Day . . . metal snake. "Color me black and blank"--black is not a color, the absence of light, so blank--"But look on the bright side of a place with no light." This is an entirely stimulating work with levels that seem to move slowly and evenly at once . . . like taking an elevator down into that mineshaft, each and every time you color yourself a new way--every time we color you a new way--the plight gets deeper and deeper, lower . . . and lower. Very calming sense of depression--an empty, static numbness that manages to still feel glum. It's an interesting poem and evokes quite the emotional reaction from readers. . .
A former member wrote: Wow, amazing work, the poetic flow really hit home to and the rhythm kept it alive and fresh. So color me impressed.Mrk
A former member wrote: Wow. Really good & deep, i love the way it flows. Great job
On Saturday, August 17, 2013, Maladroit (198) wrote:

I want to bookmark it like the other 588429 people - but color me anything but trendy- read this like a year book- "Bethany wuz here, she'll be back."
On Sunday, August 11, 2013, ColourGod (43) wrote:

Oh, to color one indeed....I'd use the hues of your mind's own landscape to paint these colors, because those are the only ones that would ever do.
On Friday, August 9, 2013, Sean Mc Shane (606) wrote:

I can relate to this very well. I could say more but I'd be here all night. This was very well done and an overall excellent piece NN. Awesome. Later -
A former member wrote: this is... for lack of a better word.. beautiful.. its so deep, but yet shallow. a good look at the mind of its creator ^_^
A former member wrote: One of my faves. Amazing flow and I can identify with the content. Last 6 lines were the most powerful. Nicely done!
On Saturday, July 20, 2013, ExaCute (37) wrote:

great poem and now one of my favs
A former member wrote: I understand this poem form my life. You are better than Edger Allen Poe, and thats saying something. CAZZO STUPEFACENTE!!!!!!!!
On Monday, July 15, 2013, haunted (837) wrote:

really good poem gary, your a man of many colors and shades. im going to color you awesome on this one! nice one!
A former member wrote: Wow, this is amazing, I understand the feeling I get from reading this, of feeling like a mistake and wanting to be gone, like using white out. Really great write
A former member wrote: I love this post!!!!! my favorite lines: Color me predictable... I always take the risk
A former member wrote: I'm not going to repeat whats already been said by the others... gushing is not really my style but this was very thought provoking and a good piece.
A former member wrote: This is a wonderful piece of art and I am glad I found this website, and poem. the way it flows is really nice. now let me ask you a question, like me, do you write to get out your feelings so you can feel better, or do you feel hopeless? because I am a person who thinks way too much and gets depressed frequently. but there is always a bright side, but my bright side is the dark side. dark things, keep me happy. sorry for the long comment, anyway, wonderful job.
On Friday, February 28, 2014, NarcissusNarcosis (94) wrote:

In the end...hopelessness ...
On Sunday, July 7, 2013, BlackVelvet Rose (175) wrote:

shit yeah... sounds like everything that runs through my head everyday...
A former member wrote: i dig that hip hop flow you're workin' with.
A former member wrote: Well, this is the first time reading your art, its interesting how flexible you made your poem
On Sunday, June 30, 2013, blue angel (866) wrote:

Powerful rhythm ~^_^~ I feel like I just got off a demonic roller coaster ride ! Sweet write* glad I found it ;)
On Saturday, June 29, 2013, soul_versing (774) wrote:

What a brilliant mind you possess.. Bows-
On Friday, June 28, 2013, Star (879) wrote:

amazing piece, nar. welcome back, sir :) missed you.
On Friday, June 28, 2013, Nehema (958) wrote:

A perfect reentry piece. It expresses so much of who you are and shows off your skills beautifully. I'm only one of many who are or are gonna be very happy to have your unique talent back on this site. Love you baby, welcome home - XXOO
On Friday, June 28, 2013, dwells (4177) wrote:

Nark has returned, YES! Welcome back buddy and this was a magnificent re-entry. Gotta admit I misread one line as "Are my dead spanking me?" - then I slowed down a bit and got back in the subterranean groove. Cheers to you!
A former member wrote: Color me impressed, this is a brilliantly written piece, with a definite uniqueness to it that give the whole thing more character, very nice.
On Friday, June 28, 2013, Devilish (2633) wrote:

Ooooooohhhhh fuck me... my god. Your not suppose to be this good!!!! Welcome back baby we looooove the fuck out of your amazing sass...you are here by faved
A former member wrote: I liked the way this poem flowed, and explained things, almost like a story, almost changing tones, getting deeper and darker with every few lines. "Color me; in nothing but White-Out; Like workds typed by accident and deleted" Love the tone and meaning of that part. Remeber though, you are not a mistake, and can not be deleted.