the first of last year
By Jonas
i wake up to kick the mice out of the grain
jeremey's couging up a fit
and no one's touched the urine stains
from the dogs that have become
symbols of themselves
in my dreams i'm always running and intimating to violence but never consumating
and i am defenseless as i whittle my teeth away while my bodyfeels the
reality of the grinding
my dreams make up convenient reasons to explain the discomfort in the their
world
i am finding no way out of this hole and until now
i didn't even know i was holding a shovel and i guess i'm in trouble but
i'm not sure because i can't say i've ever been anywhere else
and i hate this cigarette
and i hate this caffeinated twitch
and i hate all that's in my head i hate what's happened to me as my eyes
peel back like an addicts baby getting a dose from a doctor who forgot
to feel like crying about these situations i'm slowly forgetting that you
can't hide forever
and as i slip away the machine groans its way to
life
gears turning
and my organics copitulate for reasons of some long gone necessity
but my heart whispers to the ear of my spirit
words yearning for change
1/06
Comments on "the first of last year"
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A former member wrote:
you appear in my mind in random thoughts, bubbling to the surface like water in a kettle. and then you fade, when the heat is taken away. sometimes I just sit and submerge myself in your words. It brings satisfaction better than green tea every could.
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On Friday, December 29, 2006, Bella Butchery
(696) wrote:
ditto to alanarchy
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On Thursday, November 30, 2006, urbanhumility
(1158) wrote:
a quandry into lifes intrinsic voids......a rare insight into a tender confession.....drawing out truth ....to work its....divine actualization........well done my friend............urban
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On Thursday, November 30, 2006, Alanarchy
(1168) wrote:
wicked. I caught images sporadically, It was almost like watching someone else's life through television snow. Write on.
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On Thursday, November 30, 2006, carlosjackal
(2787) wrote:
OK, first the pickiness: 1. couging = coughing; 2. bodyfeels = body feels, or is it artistic license? 3. the or their world? Apart from that this is magnificent. I loved the imagery, dark and full of clarity, which is in contrast to the mood&feeling.