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...Terror of the Pine
By SolApathy
A winters dream is the nightmare I scream
Watching in silent horror of holiday glee
I vomit at the sight of a Christmas tree
Ornaments sparkling as they are hung
Just another memory of being stung
Brutalized for childhood smiles I didn’t deserve
How quickly I learned to stare vacantly to preserve
Protecting my body from just another scar
A switch from a tree- dry-- needles piercing my memoir
How I dreamed I was a porcupine as I removed needles deep
Don’t I dare scream or speak
Sign of the meek
Only more punishment if I make a peep
My present -- time alone from fear
Oh god I hear her footsteps again, near
Watching in silent horror of holiday glee
I vomit at the sight of a Christmas tree
Ornaments sparkling as they are hung
Just another memory of being stung
Brutalized for childhood smiles I didn’t deserve
How quickly I learned to stare vacantly to preserve
Protecting my body from just another scar
A switch from a tree- dry-- needles piercing my memoir
How I dreamed I was a porcupine as I removed needles deep
Don’t I dare scream or speak
Sign of the meek
Only more punishment if I make a peep
My present -- time alone from fear
Oh god I hear her footsteps again, near
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© 2020 SolApathy
Published on Friday, January 12, 2018.
Filed under:
"Poetry"
Author's Note:
As you dream of presents under the tree--My only wish is for her to leave me...BeComments on "...Terror of the Pine"
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On Monday, January 15, 2018, Drea
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wrote:
The pain of this...I can't explain to you how much this hurt.
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On Thursday, January 11, 2018, dwells
(4284) wrote:
I always got as many whacks as both my older brother and younger sister combined; but then too I was usually the ringleader... Went into this thinking a walk in the woods. Definitely a novel twist on Christmas, sadly Sol. Cheers! - Dan
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On Thursday, January 11, 2018, Cassette
(1144) wrote:
that's terrible :( as someone who wrestled half-dead tree down a flight of stairs, I can commiserate with needles digging against your skin, but to have them hit against you... I'm so sorry that you've experienced such a thing.
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On Thursday, January 11, 2018, midnights voice
(971) wrote:
I'm assuming child abuse . Children should have nothing but smiles on their faces . A true reality that is often displaced .
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A former member wrote:
Holy fucking shit, dearest! I can't help it but to clutch my chest as I read this because to have suffered cruelly like that is awful. *big hugs to you* Rebs:).
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