Enter stage right and act like you care

I'll sit here and pretend.
Pretend I remember how to read
or care. Pretend like you
were always there when I needed you.
or when I didn't.
And I will wake up. Get up
when sleeping for three days straight
feels like a crime, I will do the time.
I will spend it pretending
that all is in order.
Pretending, forgetting, extending
my hand for yours.
To reach out and grasp,
to hold to sudden realities
and earthquake dispositions.
Pretending I know my position
and reality from fantasy.
With childish inquisitions
I have lost hold on you...
Lost faith, and it's never
too late, until it's too late. or
Maybe it's too early to tell
true love from a real hell.
You know, it's just as well-
I'm always forgetting, and I was
never good at pretending...