Is everything I do
everything I am
so meaningless
so horrible
that you have to leave
and make me cry
wanting to cut
so that I can once again
feel powerless
and then you tell me
how much you love me
that you want closeness
but then you do something
something you know will push me
push me farther away from this world
and back into the darkness
fearing the stars
fearing they will cut me
because they shine
they glitter
just like a razor blade
fearing that I will stain
the beautiful stars
so pure
with my contaminated blood
and they will turn red
red with my hate
and begin to fade
fade into the blackness
of my heart
and once again
I will be alone
alone in this void
with such anguish
unknown
so once again I can cry
tears crystal clear
my heart will then
begin to hate
and my skin
will cry
from the withdrawal of pain
that I can no longer inflict
upon myself
tears of red
blood
and my soul
will begin to reach
for the light
the stars
that have faded away
and I will be lost

-Without You-