in the aftermath of who we are

WHO WE ARE?

I feel old in my body and gray in my face
I don't know what's happening or what I'm
doing at this place
Loud rings echoing in my head
Too much pain to think I'm dead

I flipped a car
Got flung afar
I woke up in the aftermath of who we are
I flipped a car
Got flung afar
I woke up in the aftermath of who we are
Of who we are

So tired, all I do is sleep
Tired of crying, no tears left to weep
I remember all the things you had to say
They echo in my head, and follow me everyday

I flipped a car
Got flung afar
I woke up in the aftermath of who we are
I flipped a car
Got flung afar
I woke up in the aftermath of who we are
Of who we are
Of who we are.


A COLD FIRE

I feel cold inside, a fire buring deep within me
Leave me be, leave me be

My heart is burning in a cold flame
Will any thing ever be the same
Or was it ever really that way
I think about it evryday

Still, I feel cold inside, a fire buring deep within me
Leave me be, leave me be

I feel angry and don't know why
All I can do is break down and cry
My anger is so strong it can take us all down
And consume this whole damn town

I want to be numb, the anger wants to be free
I don't know why this happen to me
I want to be numb, the anger wants to be free
I don't know why this happen to me
So tell me why

I feel cold inside, a fire buring deep within me
Leave me be, leave me be
So just leave me be, leave me be.


HOLD MY HEART

I don't understand
Why you hold my heart in hands
When I should fly away
You seem to want me to stay
You want me to stay

Hold my heart
Hold my heart
Hold my heart
Or let me fly away
Just let me fly away

I don't know where to start
Why do you hold my heart
Can you please let me see
What it is that you want from me
What you want from me

Hold my heart
Hold my heart
Hold my heart
Or let me fly away
Just let me fly away

Darkness is all I see
The light is inside of me
Do you want the light inside
Will you take all of my pride
All of my pride

So hold my heart
Or let me fly away
To another start
Or another day
So hold my heart
And let me stay
Or I will fly like a dart
And be on my way
On my way.


TO THE NEXT DAY

You wake up in the morning to the voices in your head
As you wonder if you're alive or if you're dead
And why is a girl named Red
Is now lying naked in your bed

You're in the fast lane
Flying high in your plane
Just hiding in the rain
Just hiding from your pain

The cigarette is now burning
As the world is turning
Growing old
Life so cold
Always on the go
To where you don't know
Just on your way
To the next day

It happened so fast
It all was a blast
But nothing really last
And is now buried in the past

So many ex-wives
Throwing their knives
Cause you ruined their lives
So now you think about your ex-wives

The cigarette is now burning
As the world is turning
Growing old
Life so cold
Always on the go
To where you don't know
Just on your way
To the next day

Living your life so wrong
So hard and so long
And you thought you were strong
Now you know you are wrong

A different lady every night
You drink until you lose your sight
You don't care about what's right
It's too late for you to see the light

The cigarette is now burning
As the world is turning
Growing old
Life so cold
Always on the go
To where you don't know
Just on your way
To the next day


EVERYTHING I PLAN FALLS A PART

Everything I plan falls a part
I don't know why I believe in my heart
That everything will be all right
At least for tonight
So tired, I can't even speak
My whole body feels so weak
I'm dead broke again
And I have no friends

And everything I plan falls a part
I don't know why I believe in my heart
That everything will be all right
At least for tonight
Cause no matter how I try
It's all just a lie
But I can't give up now
Cause I don't know how

Too much pain
Out in the rain
I can't explain
Cause I have gone insane
I don't know why
I should even try
All I do is cry
As I just want to die

So everything I plan falls a part
I don't know why I believe in my heart
That everything will be all right
At least for tonight
Cause no matter how I try
It's all just a lie
But I can't give up now
Cause I don't know how

Everything I plan falls a part
I don't know why I believe in my heart
That everything will be all right
At least for tonight
Cause no matter how I try
It's all just a lie
But I can't give up now
Cause I don't know how


LOST TIME

I wasn't around while your mom was
carrying you
For those nine months, I didn't know what I was suspose to do
I was told so much, I didn't know which story was true
All I know, is in my heart, I really love you

So much lost time
It feels like a crime
I want to be with you
What should I do

February 1st, was when you were born
My heart just felt so torn
That I missed out on your first six months, not my choice
I wasn't allowed to use my voice

So much lost time
It feels like a crime
I want to be with you
What should I do

For two months, your mom let me see you
I was happy to be able to hold you
But the time went by so fast
And your mom wouldn't let the moment last

So much lost time
It feels like a crime
I want to be with you
What should I do

So much more time now lost
I try to pay the cost
But now it's too late
And I leave it all up to fate