take as directed

By Adagios

Here in the harvest moon

harvested of air

a time and still a tune

are published in my stare

the vacancy, presumably

which you have hallowed there

among the sacred halls

here among the chosen fair

the learned and devine

resigned I do not care

title and land are mine

Facade laden with dispair

funny now to be

clinical rationer

Of truths I've never mastered

and hopes dissolved to air

hilarity, they listen

to striking calm repose

withed as a vine,

envenomed as thorn's rose

silent shifting moments

are what is left to me

vodvillian reconouter

and stark sterility

"i prescribe one part regret

three parts remembered shame

take this in the evening"

Capsule called: I am to blame

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Published on Saturday, August 27, 2016. Filed under: "Poetry"

Comments on "take as directed"

On Monday, March 25, 2019, sTr8-jAcKeT (697) wrote:

This is a real story. My last surviving brother has schizophrenia from the death of our oldest brother. He's had signs leading up to it but after his death it really set him off. He's had some pretty wild episodes & needs medication in order to stay balanced or else he starts hallucinating and going into batshit survival mode. He finally found a psychiatrist he could talk with that he actually liked. Well in this last year, I guess the doctor couldn't take hearing people's problems anymore & blew his own brains out in his office. That further helped to mess with my brother. It's ironic & I actually find it poetically hilarious & beautiful in a very macabre way. Not that I don't feel for his unfortunate situation, but you have to admit that's pretty nutty. This reminded me of that, thanks for this & if you're still reading; thanks for reading, lol.
On Monday, March 25, 2019, Adagios (716) wrote:

Lol, Yes, it is very funny in a macabre way. Though in truth a high percentage of clinicians enter the field seeking answers. I didnâ€™t, the majorly of trauma Iâ€™ve incurred occurred while is was intolerable of therapist already. I appreciate the visit and the great story, I am sorry for the effect it has wrought on your family. Thk you my friend.
On Monday, March 25, 2019, Lux (280) wrote:

One as hateful as the other. This was like a woven spell, webs and other tangled things. Your foo-foo fluff pieces... they are nothing compared to writes from this depth. I am enamored.
On Monday, March 25, 2019, Adagios (716) wrote:

I think I get your meaning, though it isnâ€™t hateful, unless itâ€™s self hatred, this is about the hypocracy of being a mental health practitioner who cannot master his own lessons, and the other party is dead, the self loathing originates with that truth. Still I love your take, and feedback. Thks
A former member wrote: Things that seem perfect on the outside are not always thus on the inside. I have swallowed this pill many times, and it never seems to get any easier. Very heartfelt and one that stops you in your tracks. Reb:).
A former member wrote: Great write man!
On Friday, September 9, 2016, Void Vortex (298) wrote:

the last line. . nice. :)
On Monday, August 29, 2016, Just Dave (448) wrote:

Very nice. Love the rhythm. Great poem. TY
On Monday, August 29, 2016, Adagios (716) wrote:

Thank you for the kind words