...Defiance

By SolApathy

The darkness of what I have become
I for so long told no one
a black abyss so far beyond numb
Striking out in anger you can’t fathom
unto myself until I detonate
...Expose
a curse on the world you cannot
Imagine
Desperate to end myself before I explode
Expose my malice to the universe
Blood of innocence shed without repentance
I am an unstoppable force
Tried so hard to seek the help I needed to fade
Now it’s too late…
 the abyss has eaten my sanity away
Failed suicide attempts left me betrayed
Driven by those who laughed at my pain…
My darkened eyes, smirking as I replay
a vision of evil you can’t imagine
a chasm of chaos in my permafried oblivion
I slice my wrists just so I can taste…
The beauty of copper on my tongue
My pain transformed into a raging storm
Tell me I’m too young to exact vengeance on this world?
Haven’t the taste for what I’m about to do
Only 14 but I’m an old soul
ready to retire through fire and agony
I will be remembered for the cataclysm
I wrought upon this world
Fashioned and framed
Set in flame to be burned into your soul
The insanity of the one you didn’t know
…The quiet one no one understood
I bring the flood of fear and death
looking to you, taking your last breath
remember me? 
The one you wouldn’t free?
Hammered and tortured every day
now who is running away?
screaming and crying
begging not to be dying
I would be lying if I wasn’t feeling remorse
yet I stay my course
the only option to cleanse my pain
I bury my faith and set the universe
….aflame

 

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© 2020 SolApathy
Published on Saturday, July 1, 2017.     Filed under: "Poetry"

Author's Note:

..In our escape to find what our soul is we sometimes stumble onto the darkness that snuffs it out...
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  • dwells On Saturday, February 23, 2013, dwells (4288)By person wrote:

    Think you might enjoy very much "The Assassin's Prayer" that I posted last year. This piece spoke volumes - it will get better, patience and keep writing!

  • SolApathy On Saturday, February 23, 2013, SolApathy (665)By person wrote:

    Just read it...Very powerful piece Thank you for sharing!

  • A former member wrote: I have empathy for you. I have felt this, and still do, but it is more balanced out now. An old soul embedded in a young body; again, sounds like what adults say to me. If I or anyone could, we would reap the world of those who enjoy inflicting unwanted pain.


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