Purgatory

I awaken to the sound of your screams
I see you kneeling in a pool of blood

My blood...

Your tear drops hit like waves
Crashing in slow motion,
Echoing like thunder

Your body trembles as your mind goes blank
Too horrified to muster a word
Gutturals roll out of your throat
Weeping like a monster in its sleep

My shattered skull lies broken at your knees
While my brains strew upon the lampshade
A revolver in my hand
Resonates the stench of burnt steel
As I lay contorted in a lake of crimson

The dead weight of my carcass
Falls limp in your arms
For our final embrace

Levitating upward in a beam of light
You're floating further from my reach
I twist and strain
Rejecting its pull
Tearing away from its grip

Your face pours into your blood soaked hands
I gently rest my fingers upon your shoulder
Looking up, bloody palm prints on your face

I see that you are...

ME...

Is this a dream?
I wonder...

Turning back to see the light
A fragment pierces my eye
As the portal narrows,
Closing completely

It is not a dream,

I'm trapped somewhere in between
The life I had and eternity

A self-made Purgatory...

My restless spirit wanders aimless
Destined to drift alone
Mourning myself forever

Nothing has changed.