Memories, holding on, trying to let go.
 Delivering, feelings (they're) not gone & I try not to show.
 Fantasy, is all that's left, while dreaming in a world that will never be mine.
 Built up, to get broke down (again) don't worry I'm fine.
 Waiting around, lifeless, for some kinda sign.
 None yet, "did it ring yet?" Goddamn I'm loosing my mind.
 I seen hope in you, ripped away, thank you, you're too kind.
 (I wanna know) What is it I have to do to finally leave you behind?

It's killing me,
 it's healing me,
 it's making me,
 it's breaking me,
 it's totally consuming me!
 Every thought, everyday.
 Why can't i just get away?
 It's what I lived for,
 it's what I (would have) died for.
 It's such a "heavenly hell" that I can't give into anymore!

True, or false, I have the need to tell.
 Win or lose, I must not fail.
 All or nothing, somethings gotta come out.
 One day (soon) I pray, you'll know what I'm talking about.
 I vow, to myself, everything will be heard.
 Every emotion, every statement, every last goddamned word!
 Such a beautiful tragedy to top off my (present) pathetic life.
 Call it conflict (unfair) or what you will, I say another chance to make it right.
 Stay or go I will not have regrets this time.
 It's been a long time coming, think I will speak my mind......

You're killing me
 you're healing me
 you're making me
 you're breaking me.
 You're totally consuming me!
 Every thought, everyday.
 Don't know if I really wanna get away!
 You're what I've lived for
 You're what I'll die for.
 You're such a "heavenly hell" that I must give in to once more!!!


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