I tip toe across the rose pedals and shattered emerald crystal that seem to
accidentally decorate your warm mahogany floor,
while trying not to
drop my heart on the way to your  kiss.

Your kiss is sweet, but
unimpressed.
(I can taste a kind of
satisfied absence in it.)

My heart stiffens with broken light rays, and
catatonic breathes.
My heart unravels itself to pieces from the
abrupt, shattering pulses.
Each red trembling part free falling to the floor in the way rain drops would
from the mouth of nowhere.


The crystal green shards puncture the precious heart parts
still laughing and crying from the shock of being kissed by determined uncertainty,

The nostalgic aroma of the rose-blood catches my senses,
causing a warm, but painful sentiment to swell my eyes weak and wet
with wishful thinking.

And here I thought I was too smart to fall in love in this kind of way,
(The truly vulnerable and stupid way),
The needing way…
(The needing way.)

You pick up my startled, emerald stained heart parts
in the kind of way a rouge angel does;
With a smile that borderlines wisdom and naivete.
With a touch that can melt and burn the skin into a white smoke of ecstasy.
With eyes that don’t intend to be as dangerous as they are.

You my love, (my friend of forever)
are dangerous;
You are a beautiful monstrosity toeing the edge of heaven,
playing with teal, forest green angel fire coagulated
inside pastel orange clouds that are potent with a peaceful kind of violence.

I’m on my knees, my pretty dignities stuck between my teeth.
(deep green shards entombed into my skin to remind me that
I am at the mercy of a rouge angel.)

“Give me my heart back”,
is all I can whisper through you because
I am already too shattered to tell you I love you
(and somehow still too proud to surrender under the heat of your devilish angel fire.)

I miss loving you with the aloof, eternally unconditional acceptance
that I had mastered in our time together.
It was so earnest and honorable.
And I had way more self esteem this way.

And now, I am suddenly stupefied and crushed
Under the weight of needing you.