I Was Wrong...

By A Velvet Tongue

I used to think it mattered
what people thought of me
I had to own what others had
bleed for society

keeping up with the Jones' is so
exhausting..

I used to think it took another
to create a perfect whole
My life would be meaningless
without someone who loved me

I had to find that perfect "someone"
or I would remain
"Noone"

Life wasn't worth living
Unless you had someone to
share it with..

looking for love under trash heaps
is dangerous...

I used to think my self worth
was measured by my net worth
or my dress size

Loving ourselves can be
a conglomeration

I used to think karma
was something that happened to others
I could be gluttonous
for things I couldnt live "without"

A deadly sin is something just that..
deadly

I once thought I couldn't live
another day...without you
The names and faces changed
but the embodiment remained..

I was wrong
so very wrong

I woke up
Learned to love all of me
The good, the bad and the ugly

The scar just above my eyebrow
The compassion that welled within my gut
The large breasts that caused my back to ache
My raging temper, that so roughly spilt
The empathy that forced me to be a bleeding heart
My need for a heart
My cunning wit
The bluest of eyes that could smile if given a reason
The sternest of welts if my anger toiled.

I learned to truly love myself
Not needing any others
Not needing reassurances
measured by others wantings

I learned this by looking inside myself
and not making excuses
I learned to help myself
Not rely on others
For what only I could truly give
I stopped looking to others
to complete me

I grew content within myself
the strength I harbored
the fufillment I held
the intellect I possessed
the beauty that ravaged me..
Inside and out..

and I fell in love..

A love noone else can give me
bring me
offer me
take from me

As I sat content to live alone

You found me
and slipped right beside me
as if you were always there
with me...

what you told me
caught me off guard
and brought a smile to these lips

My confidence...was what attracted you
My persona.. kept you at my side
My poisonous laugh ..entangled you
My touch...left you weak

I knew I couldn't love another - if I couldn't love myself
It just took time for me to realize this and allow myself to love

Me..

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Published on Tuesday, July 22, 2003. Filed under: "Poetry"

Comments on "I Was Wrong..."

On Friday, February 17, 2023, SolApathy (650) wrote:

I just found this gem...Beautiful write.
A former member wrote: I love this. It describes my journey through life so perfectly.
A former member wrote: Beautiful. You have a way with words. Well done.
On Thursday, September 1, 2005, abattoir (115) wrote:

I knew you could teach me something.*thank you *abattoir
On Tuesday, September 23, 2003, Loneal (86) wrote:

... Wow. ... Logic tells me that I can do the same and escape being wrong, as you have ... I'm still trying to figure out how to trust myself enough to do so ... I thank you for the street sign, truely. ... ~L
On Sunday, August 10, 2003, The Fallen Angel (234) wrote:

This is nice another masterpiece i must add!...you MUST learn to love yourself...everything about yourself
A former member wrote: Once we learn to love ourselves, life becomes much easier of a ride.
On Thursday, July 31, 2003, A Velvet Tongue (434) wrote:

It is just finally loving ourselves that is the hard part!
On Friday, July 25, 2003, Blood of Winter (296) wrote:

I am at a loss for words to describe the beauty you have weaved through my heart and mind with these words, they truely hit deeper than anything I've read, Thank You.
On Tuesday, July 22, 2003, Amanda Parnell (57) wrote:

This was so beautiful. Truly stunning. It takes a lot to look inside and find out just what you truly are and learn to like it. Or at least it did for me. Thank you for the great work to read. *kitten*
On Tuesday, August 5, 2003, A Velvet Tongue (434) wrote:

Looking inside can be the hardest thing to do, and accepting the truth...almost impossible..just almost...
A former member wrote: amazing amazing amazing...it's so incredibly honest and truthful... i love it
On Friday, July 25, 2003, A Velvet Tongue (434) wrote:

for what healing does writing do, without truth?..Thank you..
A former member wrote: yes yes yes yes yes!!! I love this. You are my favorite poet on this site.
On Friday, July 25, 2003, A Velvet Tongue (434) wrote:

wow, Thank you...Im just me..whatever that is
On Tuesday, July 22, 2003, urbanhumility (1158) wrote:

there is so much i can draw upon, within these hallowed words, a beautiful poem from a beautiful person,truly felt, thanx velvet......urban
On Tuesday, July 22, 2003, finaldestiny (72) wrote:

it flat out says the truth, and now one can't deny it, nice work, my props!
On Tuesday, July 22, 2003, Ophelia (221) wrote:

The honesty here is so touching. In a world were women get boob jobs, tan evey day, inject botox, and liposuction, such honesty is rare.Nice work......O.