My feelings flowing ebbing and growing

Deep rot in my throat as my brain tries to cope

These verses echo the throbbing loss I feel

Of something I have never known

Yet here it is as real as I am alone

Begging and borrowing from memories of the past

Hoping for one instant I can grasp

Feelings of warmth and hope I once knew

Escaping the precipice I feel is near

If only to hear, feel, or see a fleeting moment of purity

A hope that I know is long forgotten

Ill begotten

One night made it feel alright

Now every day I fight

A trickle of fear

Knowing there can never be more

Alone on this shore I can feel the breeze blow

Knowing the unrelenting power of the waves

Me, I cannot save

Stepping to the abyss

My children I cannot dismiss

They will never know the throbbing pain every day I withhold

Behind this cautious smile

My soul

Committed suicide…