For My Grandmother:A Letter That Can't Be Mailed
By SweetEvilness93
Grandparents are gifts.As young children,we don't know how lucky we really are to have them in our lives.If you've even met your grandparents and had enough time to get to know them,some people would consider you lucky.They are the only other people on this planet who can love you like your parents,other than your mother and father.They're your role models,teachers,people you look up too,and someone you love being around...
Dear,Grandma
This morning,for whatever reason,I picked up the phone and started dialing
your number.But,then I remembered that you wouldn't be there to answer
and I would have only gotten a disconnected message anyways.I hung up the
phone and for the first time since your funeral,I cried like a baby.I don't
think I'm ever going to stop missing you.It hasn't even been a month yet
and I have no idea how this is going to get any better.I just wish I could
see you again.How you used to be before cancer took the life out of you.With
your pretty long hair,bright eyes,and perfect smile,but I know I'll never
see you again.Until I die,and that is only if I go to where ever you are.But,I
somehow doubt that'll happen.You have to be in the most perfect place possible
because you were such a great person.You helped everyone,even when they
didn't deserve it.You spoiled your grandkids,including me.You also taught
me a lot in life.But,in these last few years,up until you took your last
breath there is something that you and grandpa have both taught me that
I'll never forget.
You taught me to value every single day.No matter
what goes wrong,how bad of a day you have,or how horrible you feel,just
be thankful to be alive for another day.You were both so strong,you and
grandpa.You were more than him though because nothing could scare him and
he never cried.When you had to do chemo,anyone could tell you were scared
and there were times when you cried and felt like giving up.You never did
give up though.You were a fighter until the very end.There were so many
things you wanted to see before your time was up.Like:your grandkids graduating
highschool,all of us going to college,and of course every one of us getting
married and having familys of our own.Most of that you never did get to
see in person,but that doesn't mean you're never going to see it because
I know you're somewhere up in the clouds with angels and you're watching
over your whole family.
Speaking of that.What's it really like up
there in the clouds?Have you met God?Are you with grandpa and everyone
else who has passed away before you?Are the clouds really as soft and fluffy
as they look down here on earth?I think they should be.More importantly
though,are you better?Since you left your body,is the cancer gone?Can you
walk and talk and remember things like you used to just a few months ago?I
sure hope so.
I have a picture of you on my bookcase from a while
ago.You have hair,your eyes are bright and alert and are smiling.I look
at it every morning and say good morning to you.It's my little reminder
to keep my head up and to keep fighting through whatever struggles I have
in my life.You've given me so much my whole life,just by simply being in
it.I look forward to the day when I go up to the kingdom in the clouds
(if I go there) and am able to say "I'm going to gradma's house" once again.
I love you grandma,keep watching over me like you have been all of my life.
Until
we meet again,
Annabel
Comments on "For My Grandmother:A Letter That Can't Be Mailed"
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On Wednesday, May 2, 2012, The_Broken_Fox_2112
(70) wrote:
The emotion in this poem is surmounted only by the charm in which it is addressed. I have not lost a close family member, but when my grandma passes away, I will never be the same. She too has taught me to be a good person and to take life by the horns, make the most of each day and be thankful for what I have. I am sorry to hear that someone so close to you has perished, but remember, their soul lives on in your heart and memories. -hugs- Thanks for sharing.
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On Monday, February 13, 2012, Phantasmagoria
(121) wrote:
Oh my, This made me cry o, so badly! Its been a little over a month since I lost my grandmother to cancer, and I've been shutting out the pain, but this, made it all come back... This is so beautiful and absolutely heartbreaking. I'm so sorry for your loss.
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On Monday, February 13, 2012, RubyXero
(484) wrote:
what a touching piece. It is so nice to hear of close family members :)
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On Monday, February 13, 2012, dwells
(4284) wrote:
Tremendously touching tribute, got to stop now, thanks so much.