disorderly- asylum door #7

By anathema

de*pres*sion

(noun)

: an act of depressing or a state of being depressed: as

a (1) : a state of feeling sad

(2) : a psychoneurotic or psychotic disorder marked esp. by sadness, inactivity, difficulty with thinking and concentration, a significant increase or decrease in appetite and time spent sleeping, feelings of dejection and hopelessness, and sometimes suicidal thoughts or an attempt to commit suicide.

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.
..
...
it is
kind
of like
a weight
that seems
to drop heavy
on your heart until
you feel like you are
buried under it. it starts
out slowly- you're just a little
more miserable than you usually
are, you cry a little harder than normal...
and then suddenly everything seems to be a lot
worse than it was yesterday, so much less livable
than it was a year ago... and you wonder how the
hell anyone could have truly loved you after all,
and maybe they were lying about their feelings
for you- how could they love you, you're
so worthless. and it just seems like it
will never get any better, and you
think briefly of death, and
you weep

~~and then you sleep, head on a tear soaked pillow, praying tomorrow will seem a little better~~

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Published on Wednesday, July 9, 2003. Filed under: "Poetry"

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Comments on "disorderly- asylum door #7"

On Saturday, August 7, 2010, ubiquitoussoul (343) wrote:

Hmm..interesting ..like that you used this format for this write..there's so much on here that is tasteless...see..you can be depressed and write awesome at the same time...thanks thinking outside the box and getting your words out into a tear drop on the page..I like how you ended it with 'you weep'..it closes the drop..and the last line acts as a floor or a pillow where the tear will fall and splash..cool..much care..
On Sunday, June 10, 2007, Moonflower (298) wrote:

i must agree with everyone else.
On Monday, February 5, 2007, carlosjackal (2788) wrote:

A beautiful teardrop of a poem, brillantly unique..Write on..
On Thursday, May 26, 2005, FlashDark (18) wrote:

you are so absolutly awesome...i wish i could write as well as you do. im just too unorganized ~ScreamingHeart~
On Wednesday, March 10, 2004, flying_fox (571) wrote:

I'm getting this tattooed on my back - brilliant words, exceptional format, stunning visual. Brings a tear to my eye, you've said it all too well. Fox
On Tuesday, March 9, 2004, ariadne (7) wrote:

ever...your truth is too beautiful
A former member wrote: its a real good work . the shape is really cool . black kisses from me
On Tuesday, September 16, 2003, SilentStalker (1047) wrote:

this....I've been here, and I'll be back....You're a good one, you....
On Tuesday, August 19, 2003, SalemLex (25) wrote:

Oh my god, i almost cried after reading this. i never thought i would find a piece that explained these feeling so well. okay forget almost.
On Sunday, August 10, 2003, Jonas (715) wrote:

the tear drop is a beautiful way to present this piece... and i identify with you quite deeply... we are discussin that right now. we are naked. we should have sex soon... whatdya think?
A former member wrote: Almost made me cry from remembering :/
A former member wrote: The art of your words with the shape... it's amazing. And your use of colour...
On Wednesday, July 9, 2003, IceDragoness (193) wrote:

very beautiful... i think this is dp diagnois of the year... you're very talented ~Dawn
On Wednesday, July 9, 2003, Six-Out (1423) wrote:

It's very in depth. I love the way it's shaped and set up. Beautifully done. You are truely, my new hero.
A former member wrote: I never really considered how many other people could be curled up gasping and thinking of what shit they are at the very same moment as me before now.