Beyond Within

I look into your eyes and what do I see
I see someone looking back at me
I never know and never knew
What exactly to do
I’m not feeling okay; I’m not feeling all right
Close my eyes and hope I can make it through the night
Dreams, they come
Some without an end and some without welcome
Living dreams as I slept
Constantly caught up in the memories I’ve kept
I never seem to noticed at all
The smiles and faces that cover the wall
Frozen in time and far behind
In the dark I search but cannot find
Find a way out of your head and out of your heart
Though there is no love keeping us together though we can never part
So look into my eyes and behold
My message to you left untold
Look deep into my eyes
Look pass the lies
Look pass my disguise
Then wake up and realize
That it can never be
Then take your love and flee
But you never can
Quite understand
My explanations
And your lust for temptations
So feel free to dream and pray
Wish away
You’re gullible, oblivious, and naïve
So go ahead believe
Back and forth you pace
Trying to forget my face
You carve my name into your arm
You think leaving a scar won’t do any harm
Though you’re the ruler of your mind of your kingdom
You can’t grant your own freedom
Even in death I’ll remain
In your heart, on it a stain
You can’t give up: you can’t let go
And it’s hard to bring myself to say no
So when I’m dead and gone
Will you be able to move on
Forget my name
Into your life I never came
I am dying but dead I’ll be
Finally, yes finally I’m free
You’re too late sorry you came
Dead I became
What’s that my friend
Would you tell me again
What you wanted to say
I wouldn’t wait even though you was on your way
It wasn’t that I wouldn’t, if only I could
You know I would
The moments are gone and the memories fade away
As will my body, my memory will decay
Out of all the lives in the world death chose me
I won’t ask why, I know but I’ll never know completely
And neither will you
Don’t worry it’s all over, just be happy it wasn’t you
If it will stop you tears and ease the pain
I’ll try if I can explain
I guess life isn’t as interesting as death
So here’s my message from beyond, my epitaph
“I knew my time was soon at hand
So drunk I couldn’t stand
I knew the end was near
So I drank myself numb with a bottle of everclear
I’m sure it was for the best
Besides I needed the rest
I may be dead and gone
But you can drink my share, so ahead and drink on
Take a final shot for me
Then forget about me and let it be
Lost dreams, forgotten promises, and no tomorrow
What better way to end a life of sorrow
Then to die alone
The only sympathy in life was that of my own
I’m sorry I tried
Tried to wipe away the tears I cried
You were so beautiful and so very kind
It’s too bad you had to go leave me behind
All those words I wanted to say were never spoken
Because now our dreams our love shattered and broken
Oh the day you died
I was kneeling by your side
You faintly said I love you
But you died before I could do what I wanted to do
I love you to is what I wanted to say
My life was you but your life passed away
And even though I lived pass then
I’d never love nor be loved again
Your love was my only goal
And when I got it your life death stole
I lived all those years
I cried all those tears
I wanted so much to be with you
And once again I’m at your side because I’m dead to
As I’m waiting for death
While I have these few moments left
Promise me you’ll be there
It’s the last thing I want to hear
Please oh please be sincere
Don’t do it to comfort me since my time is near
I accept death but even after death I still can’t be without you
So you know what to do
When I awake, when I arise we’ll be side by side, hand in hand
Where Heaven once stood there we’ll stand
We’ll look past and beyond infinity
We’ll become one in unity
We’ve never lived so we’ll never die
The earth is our bed and our blanket is the sky
And because it is our dream, our fantasy
We are the only ones who can see
The only ones who can hear, taste, and feel
We can sense and breathe it to us it is real
We’ll walk through our creation
It’s as endless as our imagination
It has no boundaries, no ends
But like the ever-changing winds
Nothing can forever remain
Everyday is washed away by the rain
And every morning it’ll all be reborn
Everything will be new and different leaving us always in wonder wanting to learn
We’ll never grow old
It’ll never get old because it’s our creation, it’s ours to mold
Reality
It’s just as real and fake as our imaginations but never farther than our ability
So, promise me you’ll be there
Or our fantasy will fade and disappear
We’ll no longer be pain grown and fear owned
Nor fear grown and pain owned
Just you and me
We’ll finally be free
Hold my hand as I walk into the light
It’ll all be okay it’ll all be all right
Beyond my grave
In all the memories you’ve managed to save
I’m there, in your memories, I live on
And even those moments in time in life are gone
You can still look back and cry or smile
You can’t forget it’s just futile
I’m as much as you as were of me
All I was, was all I’d ever be
I hope you knew and still know
I love you so
Remember a time and place
Remember my face
The way you were memorized by my eyes
You now stand over where my body lies
But my final resting place is in your memory
Look in there and you’ll find me
In those memories I survive
In those memories I live, in them I’m alive