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It's not your fault (rape)
By Bluegirl
"It's YOUR fault" he said
Cleaning off his tool
As I grasp for words,
and find none
As if the shape of my eyes
or curve of my hips -
As if soft skin
or a fleeting glance
can explain the
madness in your molten mind
"It's your fault"
The words burn at me
Tear me apart
It is a lie
a
LIE!
Please explain to me
how the fit of my dress
made you hurt me?
Tell me how fllowers or
fishnets cause bruises -
Weave a story about how
velvet and lace
are interchangable
with "cuts" or "stitches"
"It's your fault"
How is kicking
and screaming:
"NO!"
now a "yes"
I never gave you
p.e.r.m.i.s.s.i.o.n.
to take away my tricycle
"It's your fault"
How does running out of energy -
How does the vile beer on your breath
Make it better?
Is it my fault
You bought your own scapegoat?
"It isn't my fault!!"
Why is laying back and accepting
I can't win
Your way to validate it?
How can you enjoy
watching as the
>::sparkle::<
in my eyes
F A d . e . s . away?
When they look cold, dead
Is that how you know you've won?
..."it isn't my fault"
********
Years later, she looks at me
"Where were you just now?"
I look up at her,
Tears in my eyes
"It IS my fault."
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© 2006 Bluegirl
Comments on "It's not your fault (rape)"
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On Sunday, October 1, 2006, KittyStryker
(711)
wrote:
Yeah. I know what you mean. And what's the lamest part is that every time I strike out at him, it's someone else in real life, someone who loves me. It's hell.
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A former member wrote:
This is a wonderful poem. Your pain, the words, it is all so real. Why do we always feel that it is our fault? ... I can't really articulate a proper comment this touched me so. *~`burned`~*
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On Friday, September 22, 2006, Jenni
(40) wrote:
i felt exactally the same way for years after it happened to me, and it took me a long time to realize it Wasn't my fault, just like it's not yours sweetie. if you ever want to talk, i'm here for you.
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On Friday, September 22, 2006, Carnapharnelia
(14) wrote:
I just wish I could jump in and make it all better. This tore at the deepest of me.
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On Friday, September 22, 2006, Dissolving Poet
(564) wrote:
AWWWWWWW fuck no, *Hugs* this just tore me apart I wanted to jump in there and beat the shit out of the bastard, . This was...God I wanted to kick some fucking ass and give you the biggest hug in the whole world ~Gothic
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On Friday, September 22, 2006, Bluegirl
(177) wrote:
Thanks Gothic Symphony. Hugs are always helpful. *hug*
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On Friday, September 22, 2006, Alanarchy
(1200) wrote:
Damn, damn, damn, damn, damnit. I know I don't know you, but tell me who it is-just tell me. Karma's a bitch, but I work faster!
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On Friday, September 22, 2006, Bluegirl
(177) wrote:
Thanks. :) It helps to know there are people on my side.
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A former member wrote:
holy shit love...for soooo many months after things tripped me up and left me with memories of a time I was almost raped (actually, there's been two times), I blamed myself. But there's no use blaming yourself...it's not your fault. ~*Beth*~
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A former member wrote:
"I never gave you p.e.r.m.i.s.s.i.o.n. to take away my tricycle" - Damn. This is powerful. Poignant write. Well done.
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