Letter Written Burned To Autumn Ashes

By XCryingMinotaurX

Dear ______ ,

Time does not change what is inside your heart, and you will not love me.

But I shall stand here:
* naked
* bleeding
* dying

Waiting for:
* words that will not come
* arms that will not open
* future that will not happen

I do not know why my stomach fills with butterflies when your name is spoken.
I do not know why my heart skips a beat when you come calling.
I do not know why I break into a sweat when I pull onto your street.
I do not know why I lie awake at night thinking of what ifs and could be's.

I could list the reason I love you:
* you love music more than I do and you share your knowledge with me
* there's a fine line between insanely smart and just plain insane but both make you interesting
* you make me laugh and smile like no one else
* you're beautiful to me
* you are something that I cannot have

I could list the reasons I hate you:
* you love to blow me off
* your words are often hollow and cold
* you know how I feel and think you have a right to tell me who I am
* the mere mention of another female sends me into a inner struggle with jealous rage
* you know how to make me do anything you'd like
* you are something I cannot have

Sometimes I wonder if I've really wasted a year and a half of my life on you.
Am I that blind?
You will never be mine, despite the fact that I've opened my soul to you in every way imaginable.
My heart has bled at your feet in more ways than one and you only know how to make it worse.

You know I love you and you're terrified. Why?
You run away at the faintest mention of my undying loyal love for you.
You walk one step ahead so I cannot catch you.
And I, the saddest girl in the world, trail ever so faithfully behind.
You will never love me, but I will continue to miserably love you.

You are my bane.
* my curse
* my plague
* my love

Sometimes you don't know what you have until you've lost it.
Remember that when you really want to jump off your roof.
You will not fly and I will not catch you.

Sincerely,
___________

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Copyright 2004 XCryingMinotaurX
Published on Sunday, June 13, 2004.     Filed under:
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  • I IS ME On Saturday, March 31, 2018, I IS ME (380)By person wrote:

    I IS ME personally like this one We like what we like I've gotta step my game up dp is the next level

  • Pride Ed On Sunday, July 13, 2014, Pride Ed (107)By person wrote:

    Yes. I do realize that this was posted a long time ago, and that its possible the author will never see this comment, but this has got to be the most saddest, raw, beautifully written piece that I have come across on this site. The pain is expressed is real, and matter-of-fact. Anyone who has, or had a broken heart can relate to this! A very personal, yet awesome read! ^_^

  • mysterylove On Wednesday, October 31, 2012, mysterylove (97)By person wrote:

    so what happened now...?

  • the dried flower On Saturday, August 5, 2006, the dried flower (67)By person wrote:

    wow. it was so good thats all i can say, is wow.

  • Leigh On Monday, May 23, 2005, Leigh (14)By person wrote:

    Very nicely said

  • Munkey On Monday, May 23, 2005, Munkey (79)By person wrote:

    This is maybe the best poem I have read on this site...makes me cry everytime I read it. -Munkey-

  • October Death On Saturday, April 9, 2005, October Death (18)By person wrote:

    I have read your works for a long time. You have a great talent and everything you write, I can automatically envision and this piece is close to my heart because it is something that has happened to me recently. *Adds you*

  • Carmina Gitana On Saturday, March 12, 2005, Carmina Gitana (149)By person wrote:

    This is so good, so honest, so understatedly matter-of-fact, but there is so much pain coming through - the kind of pain where you cannot even really cry. I think many of us have loved someone like this.

  • GraySky On Wednesday, February 9, 2005, GraySky (15)By person wrote:

    I absolutely love it. It sounds a lot like what I'm feeling right now.

  • MyScarsStillBleed On Wednesday, January 5, 2005, MyScarsStillBleed (16)By person wrote:

    I had a relationship like this once, only it lasted 2 and a half years and drove me nearly to suicide

  • Munkey On Sunday, November 28, 2004, Munkey (79)By person wrote:

    Wow, it's takes balls to say anything like this but you said them all...I must say that I'm proud of you. Nice Write. Keep it Dark -Munkey-

  • A Broken Soul On Thursday, November 25, 2004, A Broken Soul (80)By person wrote:

    omfg. that was great. you took all the things i'd never have the guts to actually send to a past love. *aplauds* your work is amazing! ^Autumn^

  • Savannah On Tuesday, August 31, 2004, Savannah (218)By person wrote:

    *chills* this is fucking awesome! I love it and I know how you feel, I swear. Once again, you will be fine.

  • knightmirror On Wednesday, July 21, 2004, knightmirror (426)By person wrote:

    holy crap! *speechless* chris

  • A former member wrote: damn this almost brought tears to my eyes. I love your way with words ~serpentine~

  • Six-Out On Sunday, June 13, 2004, Six-Out (1423)By person wrote:

    *claps* I'd like to hope I'll never get a letter like this...ouch.

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