Letter Written Burned To Autumn Ashes

By XCryingMinotaurX

Dear ______ ,

Time does not change what is inside your heart, and you will not love me.

But I shall stand here:
* naked
* bleeding
* dying

Waiting for:
* words that will not come
* arms that will not open
* future that will not happen

I do not know why my stomach fills with butterflies when your name is spoken.
I do not know why my heart skips a beat when you come calling.
I do not know why I break into a sweat when I pull onto your street.
I do not know why I lie awake at night thinking of what ifs and could be's.

I could list the reason I love you:
* you love music more than I do and you share your knowledge with me
* there's a fine line between insanely smart and just plain insane but both make you interesting
* you make me laugh and smile like no one else
* you're beautiful to me
* you are something that I cannot have

I could list the reasons I hate you:
* you love to blow me off
* your words are often hollow and cold
* you know how I feel and think you have a right to tell me who I am
* the mere mention of another female sends me into a inner struggle with jealous rage
* you know how to make me do anything you'd like
* you are something I cannot have

Sometimes I wonder if I've really wasted a year and a half of my life on you.
Am I that blind?
You will never be mine, despite the fact that I've opened my soul to you in every way imaginable.
My heart has bled at your feet in more ways than one and you only know how to make it worse.

You know I love you and you're terrified. Why?
You run away at the faintest mention of my undying loyal love for you.
You walk one step ahead so I cannot catch you.
And I, the saddest girl in the world, trail ever so faithfully behind.
You will never love me, but I will continue to miserably love you.

You are my bane.
* my curse
* my plague
* my love

Sometimes you don't know what you have until you've lost it.
Remember that when you really want to jump off your roof.
You will not fly and I will not catch you.

Sincerely,
___________

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Published on Sunday, June 13, 2004. Filed under:

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Comments on "Letter Written Burned To Autumn Ashes"

On Saturday, March 31, 2018, I IS ME (406) wrote:

I IS ME personally like this one We like what we like I've gotta step my game up dp is the next level
On Sunday, July 13, 2014, Pride Ed (108) wrote:

Yes. I do realize that this was posted a long time ago, and that its possible the author will never see this comment, but this has got to be the most saddest, raw, beautifully written piece that I have come across on this site. The pain is expressed is real, and matter-of-fact. Anyone who has, or had a broken heart can relate to this! A very personal, yet awesome read! ^_^
On Wednesday, October 31, 2012, mysterylove (99) wrote:

so what happened now...?
On Saturday, August 5, 2006, the dried flower (67) wrote:

wow. it was so good thats all i can say, is wow.
On Monday, May 23, 2005, Leigh (14) wrote:

Very nicely said
On Monday, May 23, 2005, Munkey (79) wrote:

This is maybe the best poem I have read on this site...makes me cry everytime I read it. -Munkey-
On Saturday, April 9, 2005, October Death (18) wrote:

I have read your works for a long time. You have a great talent and everything you write, I can automatically envision and this piece is close to my heart because it is something that has happened to me recently. *Adds you*
On Saturday, March 12, 2005, Carmina Gitana (149) wrote:

This is so good, so honest, so understatedly matter-of-fact, but there is so much pain coming through - the kind of pain where you cannot even really cry. I think many of us have loved someone like this.
On Wednesday, February 9, 2005, GraySky (15) wrote:

I absolutely love it. It sounds a lot like what I'm feeling right now.
On Wednesday, January 5, 2005, MyScarsStillBleed (16) wrote:

I had a relationship like this once, only it lasted 2 and a half years and drove me nearly to suicide
On Sunday, November 28, 2004, Munkey (79) wrote:

Wow, it's takes balls to say anything like this but you said them all...I must say that I'm proud of you. Nice Write. Keep it Dark -Munkey-
On Thursday, November 25, 2004, A Broken Soul (81) wrote:

omfg. that was great. you took all the things i'd never have the guts to actually send to a past love. *aplauds* your work is amazing! ^Autumn^
On Tuesday, August 31, 2004, Savannah (218) wrote:

*chills* this is fucking awesome! I love it and I know how you feel, I swear. Once again, you will be fine.
On Wednesday, July 21, 2004, knightmirror (426) wrote:

holy crap! *speechless* chris
A former member wrote: damn this almost brought tears to my eyes. I love your way with words ~serpentine~
On Sunday, June 13, 2004, Six-Out (1435) wrote:

*claps* I'd like to hope I'll never get a letter like this...ouch.